After that kiss (a shoey fan-fiction)

Chapter 47

Joey's P.O.V

I wake up still balled up in Shane's arms. He looks tired, sleeping. He must of stood up all night. So i stood there and waited for Shane to wake up. I needed to hold him. I needed to know he was here. I started to cry but i made sure he wouldn't notice. When i stopped crying, i started breathing heavily. I was thinking, "what if this was a mistake?" I tried to slow down my breathing before Shane woke up but i couldn't. That's when he woke up.

Shane: Joey what happened?

Joey: *pant**pant*

I sounded like i had asthma and i just finished running.

Shane: Joey..

Joey: Nothing

Shane: Joey..

Joey: Nothing

Shane: Alright. Whatever

He got up walked away. He sounded annoyed. Which made me feel guilty. I hate when he does that. It makes me tell him and he knows it. Uggghhhh....

Joey: Shane.....

Shane: Yea?

Joey: I was thinking...

Shane: Yea....

Joey: What would happen if this was a mistake?

Shane: .....

He just stared at me. Oh god.

Shane's P.O.V

Really Joey? Really? How many times are you going to fucking ask? This just got me pissed. Why are you even asking. Thats it. I blew up. I tried, but thats it.

Shane: I see how it fucking is-

Joey: Shane wait!

I grabbed my jacket off of tha chair. Joey got up and followed me. I kept complaining while i was walking away. Joey followed me.

Shane: Why do you keep asking anyway? You knew i love you. Ive never loved anyone more than you. No one. But if you really want this relationship to be a mistake, thats what it is

I started crying. So did Joey. I walked out the door and Joey followed me. I started running and Joey wouldnt stop. I ran into my car and Joey got into the passangers side. He closed the door.

Shane: What do you want Joey?

Joey: I dont think this was a mistake

Shane: Then why do you keep asking?

Joey: Because of all the stuff that is happening to us

Shane: I push everything to the side and just believe in us, Joey.

Joey: Well ive tried and i cant

Shane: BUT YOU WERE THE ONE WHO TAUGHT ME HOW TO- you know what? Forget it. dont explain. I dont even know at this point.

We stood there for a while in silence. We were both looking out the window next to our sides, not the same window. Then i heard Joey's phone click open. I got mad. But all i did was breathe in and out. Then i got a message. I opened my phone. It was Joey, well obviously, but i didnt think thats what he was doing

**texts**

Joey: Im sorry

Shane: Whats there to be sorry for?

Joey: Everything

Shane: Like?

Joey: You know...

Shane: You dont have to be sorry.

Joey: Well i am

Shane: I already felt like you would hate me anyway

Joey: You shouldnt have to. Because i dont

Shane: Alright. Whatever

Joey: Shane. I dont.

Shane: Ok

Joey: You dont believe me do you?

**end texts**

Joey: I love you Shane. You dont have to believe it. And if things happen right, ill see you inside. Lets just see what happens. I love you Shane. And if this is it for us, heres one thing to rememer....us...

He pulled my head to have me looking at him. He leaned in and kissed me. I wasnt sure if i should kiss back. He stopped and i hadnt kissed back, trying to make up my mind. He started to cry.

Joey: Bye Shane. The door will be opened until i fall asleep.......if i can.

He got out the car, closed the door, and walked away. I have never seen him so sad. I just sat there in shock.

Joey's P.O.V

I guess thats it. He doesnt love me back, does he? I walked in the house and i grabbed a bear that Shane had got me one day. Then i got blankets and wrapped myself into them. I held the bear in the covers and squeezed it. At least i still had one part of Shane that i can keep forever. It smelled like him, which was comforting. i sat on the couch and just watched Netflix. Aroud 4:00 i made myself a sandwich. I felt so pathetic. I mind as well get over him. I ruined everything. By 6:00 i was asleep, holding the bear, without the covers. Then i felt something playing with my hair. I woke up, no one was there. I checked the time. 8:17. Why am i expecting him to come back? So i fell asleep again. I felt something playing with my lips. Joey, dont even bother waking up. No point. Just another vivd imagination. But something is telling me that this feeling is real. That this is not just in my head. So i got up.

Joey: Shane!

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I love you guys. Got to go. Ill try to update tomorrow. I HOPE YOU HAD FUN HANGING WITH ME I HAD FUN HANGING WITH YOU MAY THE ODDS BE EVER IN YOUR FAVOR AND I WILL SEE YOU TOMORROW  probably GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODBYE ;)