I'm Happy If You Are

Does It Hurt?

  "Take chances, make mistakes. That's how you grow. Pain nourishes your courage. You have to fail in order to practice being brave."

-Mary Tyler Moore-

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I was near tears last night while writing, the music I play when writing and the whole shi-bang was way too much at 3 AM.

Chapter 21:

(Kerri's POV)

I open my eyes and see a dark room lit only by the natural light coming from the window above a sleeping Lucas.

I shuffle and sit up in the bed. Lucas turns to me when I turn on the lamp light. His face is full of sleep and his eyes end up shooting open at my movement.

Pain in my right arm makes me jerk away from the lamp and a excruiating pain shooting through my skull makes me close my eyes softly after watching Lucas walk over to me slowly.

"Kerri? Are you okay?" his voice makes my heart hurt indescribably.

I attempt to reply to him but my words got caught in my throat so I opted for a nod.

"I'll get the doctor, don't move."

He rushes out of the room and all thoughts fade as I lay my head upon my pillow, all except one, Grey.

Where is he? Is he alive? Does he have any family to be there for him?

I should find him and comfort him just like he would do to me.

Before I can get up the courage to do just that the door opens with the one person I have wanted to see.

"Hey, are you okay?" Grey runs up to me and hugs me lightly, his cast touching my arm. I nod in reply, not wanting to hurt myself by talking.

My mother and sister follow behind him and the doctor and Lucas trail in.

"Hello there Kerri, feeling any pain?" the doctor questioned and I thought I should at least try to talk.

Lucas eyed me, he saw what happened to me when I tried to talk.

"M-" my voice was hoarse and it hurt when I talked," my right arm hurts and it hurts to-"

The doctor looked concerned," don't talk if it hurts. Your arm was jammed against the door in the crash and it hurts to talk because your head bend when you went tumbling and somehow you've managed to scar your throat, you'll need to keep the talking to a minimum if any at all so it can heal."

I looked at the doctor and the people in the room that are here by my side. I can see that they've already heard this.

"I can't talk?" I push myself to speak but still it comes out hoarse.

"It will only slow down the healing process," he replies," now, any other pain?"

I shake my head and look to Lucas who gives a small smile.

The doctor leaves with a goodbye and warns me of things not to do, which will probably not be abided by.

"I'm so sorry Kerri. I never wanted you to get hurt," Grey states and sits on the bed beside me, holding my hand in his.

I smile and nod showing that I understand. I touch his red cast and look up to him.

"Does it hurt?" I ask but end up having to grab my throat. The pain from talking is way too much for me. I've already went my limit for today.