I'm Happy If You Are

Internal Arguments

Chapter 13:

(Grey's POV)

I watch him get into his car and drive away as I hold Kerri.

"You didn't need to do that."

Kerri pulls me out of my world of anger and I look into her soft eyes.

"Yes, I did. You may not know it but he is jealous okay? He wants to be you and he can't," I whisper to her.

I push back her soft hair and curl it around her ear.

She looks at me weirdly.

"What?"

She shrugs her shoulders and smiles," I never pictured you to be the one that did this type of stuff."

I never have been one for the mushy relationship, cutesy type stuff. It's always been use them and kick them to the curb.

But with Kerri here now, I don't understand what's going on. I want to fight it but I can't. I have this need to make her smile, it's indescribably annoying and very new.

I want to make her happy.

"I know it seems odd of me to be like this, but I just want to make you smile. I don't want to hurt you and I don't know where all this is coming from," I explain, which brings a smile back onto her face.

She just looks at me, smiling widely.

The door is opened by her mother, breaking us apart and catching us off guard.

Her mother is grasping bags. She smiles at us as she sets them onto the table.

"Kerri, who is this?"

I just stand there awkwardly as her mother scans by body. Her eyes roll over my tattoos on my arm and single lip piercing.

Kerri stutters and looks for words," uhm.. uh.. this is Grey. Grey this is my mother."

Time to bring out the charm.

"Hello Mrs. Rivers." I give her a smile and hold out my hand.

Kerri's eyes go wide in the corner of mine and she is astonished.

"Hello Grey, may I ask-"

Her mother is cut off by Kerri," mother, Grey has to go. Say bye Grey."

I wave to Kerri's mom and give a small smile.

We leave the house and stand out on the front patio.

"Thank god, I felt like a prissy college bound student," I state.

She smiles," shut up and get out of here before she makes you stay longer."

I actually wouldn't mind staying longer. This is Kerri, we're talking about, good girl Kerri.

I cannot be thinking like this.

I give her a small smile and pull her in for a hug. Instead of giving me a hug she kisses me harshly and I react immediately.

I wish she knew how much I loved the way she leans into me.

My hands travel to her neck and my other hand grips her waist.

I hear a clearing of the throat behind me and I pull away from Kerri quickly to see her mother with her hand, clichely, propped on her hip.

Kerri's face is a bright red color. Her mother has embarrassed her.

"Mother, I'll be inside soon," Kerri groans.

Her mom sighs and walks back inside the house, leaving us to ourselves.

"Where are you going foe the rest of the week?" She decides to ask that question, really?

I sigh," my parents are dragging me along on a business trip."

Lies.

Kerri doesn't know anything about my real family, and she will not know, ever.

My family and I aren't on good terms. I am disconnected from my dad and my mom left me two years ago to go into a mental hospital.

When I was younger my dad beat my mom to insanity. She's schizophrenic. I haven't seen her once since she left. And I haven't seen my father since I was 11. He left us one night he got drunk and went into prison for two years. And when he got out, he didn't bother to call and tell us he was moving to California with a 20 year old.

I now live with my grandmother from my mother's side. She's the only person I can depend on and even then I rather rely on myself to do things.

"Oh," she replies.

I nod and smile," I've got to get going, I'll see you on Friday?"

She nods and backs away from me as she heads towards the front door.

I see her in my rearview mirror standing on the patio watching me drive away.

She's so beautiful even when she doesn't try.

I want to push all my thoughts about her downwards and I want to just set aside all the mushy gushy thoughts. I don't want to be that bad guy who turns good for the good girl, I don't want to be that guy who falls at her feet and honors her.

I want to cut off all my emotions and just let her go. I'm not that type of guy. I refuse to be the cliche bad boy goes good and I sure as hell refuse to ever let Kerri go.

She sets off a switch in me that makes me run wild with emotion. She makes my humanity come out. She makes me want to be in the realistic world and come out of my safe hiding place.
I turn into my driveway to see that my grandmother's car is here.

I open the front door and pineapple hits my senses. She has made her famous pineapple upside down cake.

My stomach growls in attempt to warn me that I need to eat before I pass out.

She only fixes her specialty when there's something going on. I wonder what has gone wrong now.

I sit down at the table and look at her rummaging through the pile of cook books.

"What's the deal?"

She looks up at me and smiles," nothing darling, I'm just making your favorite."

I don't buy a single word that has fallen from her mouth yet.

"Grandma, tell me, now."

She sighs in defeat and sits across from me in one of the wooden chairs.

What's the deal now...? Grey's got a secret... Kerri and Lucas aren't on good terms.. and Grey is slowly getting under Lucas' skin. What shall happen next? Love you guys! Comment and vote for extra updates and extra drama, because who doesn't love drama! All you've gotta do is click the star...