I'm Happy If You Are

A Two Way Mirror

Chapter 26:

(Kerri's POV)

"Are you okay?" I whisper to Lucas over the phone. My voice has only slightly appeared after an hour drive.

He found his sister on the ground.

"Yeah, she woke up almost as soon as I came in the door. She doesn't want me to call for an ambulance, though, which scares me to death."

I sigh as we pull into the driveway. "You're gonna call anyways right?" I ask but he doesn't respond," Lucas, right?"

Every word I speak makes me wanna throw the phone, the pain can be unbearable but it's worth making sure Lucas is okay.

He hesitates before replying," Kerri, I don't want her to think she cannot trust me. I just can't. She's my sister but... think about it like this. Wouldn't you expect me to respect your wants?"

"Yeah, but-" I fumble for words," this is Kenna we are talking about. I am holding her dress in my hands, Lucas."

I have to pause and recover from raising my voice," this is your sister and the only thing I had even close to a female best friend. Well, you're probably a bit closer but, hey, we aren't getting technical."

He sighs," I'm going to trust what she says. She says she's fine, I have to trust her."

"Fine."

I run my hand across my face as I sit down on my soft bed, the bed I missed oh so much.

"I'll talk to you later, be careful, don't talk."

"No promises, bye."

"I- bye," he stumbles over his words.

Was he gonna... was he gonna say he loves me? Just stop, stop thinking about it.

I hang up the phone and see Grey's name pop up on my phone's call log. I wonder if he's okay? I hope that he is. He had no way of getting home! I'm such a dumbass. I bet he was still sitting in that bathroom when we passed it. My thoughts are running wild, my throat is dying, and Lucas is dealing with his sister alone.

"Kerri?" my mom walks through the open doorway and into my room with a smile. I then see a smaller pair of feet behind her larger ones.

"Hey Hannah," I speak softly in hopes of it not hurting, but it does.

"No talking." My mother's firm voice calls out as Hannah steps out from behind her.

"She was worried about you," my mom states making Hannah blush.

Hannah gives me a huge hug and I smile at her. "I'm okay."

"Kerri, no talking," my mother scolds and I give her a glare," we are having dinner with Grey's grandmother.

My face morphs to shock. My mother actual thinks I'm going to have dinner with Grey? Hell, no, not after what happened in the past three days.

I shake my head," you're crazy." I grasp my throat in pain.

"He stayed the night with you and his grandmother invited us. She seems nice."

"She may be but he's the exact opposite. He ruined Lucas' and I relationship, he turned everything into disaster. I cannot stand to even look at him," I yell hoarsely.

She walks to me and Hannah sitting next to me in silence, she didn't have words in this conversation.

"We're going. She asked us and if he's as awful as you say then he will probably not even be there ."

I shake my head and lay against my soft comforter, sighing in complete exhaustion.

"Fine. Just leave and let me rest, for god's sake."

She rubs her temples and leaves with Hannah trailing behind her.

I do wonder how he is. If he's home. I hope that he made it home. Damn it Kerri, you're not supposed to worry about him he almost ruined yours and Lucas' friendship.

I slam my phone shut and close my door with a long breath of air.

Life isn't supposed to be this hard. You're not supposed to have this aching pain in your heart every moment leaving you to only want one person, the person you are supposed to hate the most. I'm not supposed to want Grey's touch, nor am I supposed to want him back but... I do. I hate admitting it and I hate knowing that I cannot do one thing about it but, that's the way it is.

Although he hurt Lucas and he hurt me, I hate knowing that I have changed him and he now is dealing with his screwed up life all alone. He has no one and no one has him, he has himself. But he's the one who did it, he made it this way. I'm sure he's the one who pushed his family away and I'm sure he couldn't help it. He doesn't know anything else and he never will because although he has feelings for me, he doesn't know how to stop pushing me way.

I open my phone back up and go to dial his number; no answer. Why is life so horrible to me?

(Grey's POV)

"I can't just wake her up at six in the morning," I state, holding back from opening the front door to my grandmother's house.

"See that right there is all because of Kerri. You never think of anyone else other than yourself, now you do. If it wasn't for Kerri you wouldn't have called me, you would've called your grandmother and woke her up, instead you called me. Kerri has changed you."

Michael still hasn't stopped his constant bickering and gushy statements about the love I have for Kerri.

My glares shoot through his eyes and even though they send him the signal of get the fuck away he remains smiling at me, silently.

"You could always come back to my dorm. My roommate wouldn't mind," he offers.

No, I just want to hold Kerri at her house.

Shut up mind. Kerri obviously doesn't want me anymore. I'm not good enough for her.

You were literally thinking about having kids with her like an hour and a half ago.

I shut my mind off and follow Michael giggling at me towards the sleek car we pulled up in.

The ride was excruciatingly slow due to Michael's mainstream junk music. I eventually plugged my phone in with the aux cord after it had fully charged and we listened to Sleeping With Sirens. His cringe was worth all the mushy gushy love statements about Kerri and I.

Okay you guys... what do you think? We have a new character; Michael, he's Grey's brother. Also, I haven't updated because someone dear to me passed away, my beloved Fiona, may she rest in peace. Fiona is my internet box, she has been with my family and I for a year or two now, maybe three and it was her time. I should have the internet connection back when she gets into heaven and will be able to send the connection long distance (by Friday you guys, Friday, thank the gods). If you do not understand the chapter title then just comment, I will gladly explain. Comment and vote if you enjoyed!! Love you all!! -C