Me Without You

chapter twelve

6:47 a.m. June 20th

my eyelids fluttered open and I examined my surroundings confused.

I was in the back of my car. Not knowing how I got there I checked my phone for the time.

Almost 7 a.m.

I realized was in the parking lot of a bar, and the memories of the previous night began to come back.

I didn't remember much, and I definitely didn't remember how I got to my car.

whatever.

I thought and began to drive home.

when I got home I parked and hoped no one noticed my absence. I climbed back into my room and hid in my bed on the off chance that my mom would check on me.

I had a pounding headache from the night before and felt like throwing up. After I was sure all my family had left, I made my way down stairs to get water. I hadn't eaten in a little over a week maybe. The only things in my system were alcohol and water.

I took a few pills to help with the headache and then made my way back upstairs.

I didn't know what to do with my free time. I had simply been visiting places I went with Tyler over and over again. I decided today would be a little bit bigger.

I put on some clothes and tried to make it look like a wasn't drunk out of my mind the night before.

I made sure my hair looked decent and headed out the door.

I drove to an art museum I went to with Tyler not too long ago. He knew I liked art and wanted to surprise me.  We spent all day there and then went out to eat later.

Walking through the galleries and looking at the same pieces that I've seen all before gave me a strange feeling, it felt like nothing had changed. But that wasn't true. Everything was different now.

I made my way through the rest of the rooms and then went outside where there was a beautiful fountain.

I stood by the edge and looked at all the coins at the bottom of the green tinted water.

//Flashback\\
|"Come on you have to tell me" he laughed holding a handful of coins.

"No," I said smiling "if I tell you it won't come true."

"Okay, fine if you insist." he said.

He dumped about half the coins he had in his hands into mine.

"For more wishes." he smiled, "don't waste them." He said faking seriousness.

He looked at me with the pile of coins in his palm, and faster than I could blink tossed them all into the fountain in one motion.

"What did you do that for?" I asked him.

"I have everything I could ever wish for right here." He kissed the top of my head and pulled me into a hug.

I threw the rest of the coins I was holding into the fountain and we kissed.|

I sat on the edge of the fountain with tears streaming down my cheeks remembering that day.

I was still crying when someone tapped me on the shoulder and I looked up finally.

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