the nowhere of believers.

26

Non of your choices
to escape were right.
the only thing made me patient
is that name of mine
was there
on your love list.
my eyes were full of hope,
when I was waiting for that love.
like were going on an
adventurous trip together.

that smirk before you said my name was like beasts going to eat me in
the woods while were in that sight.

tho I did too much
effort for you, you cannot trust
the ropes that were wrapped
around us because of life.
Useless.

I felt like a hungry bird.
after you set yourself free,
roamed the world, only to have fun.
you came back with no medicine.
instead, you told me about
other colorful birds and stories,
and I felt the hunger is
killing me inside.

choosing me to be
your wings was pathetic. 
all I dreamt of
is being your
one and only bird your eyes
could see flying happily.
all what was pulled out was happiness
all what stayed was madness.
and it's all what it is, in the past.

I left the birds field,
I left my
birdy parents.
and I found another
place were I was heading for

so straight and quick
dreadful thoughts
till it got dark at night as
I heard trees leaves shaking.

Trees were showing me freedom,
till I hit the hard part of it.

Couldn't get out of the woods.
I broke my own wings,
and I was owned to the floor.

Where are you now?
I forgot where I came from.
aren't you going to save me as you're the reason of me being lost in here?
my mind led me to your name when I thought of a savor first.

Tho you lied to me,
tho I was chosen
because of my
Full of hopes eyes
starring at you.
now,
my eyes are hopelessly closed.
I didn't get any care
unless I existed.
but I'm thankful
for the moments
you made me hold on to
and the way I finally stopped
my mind from over thinking a lot.
actually, probably it stopped thinking.

It finally had no red blood.
it finally felt no hunger to stay.
It finally had the hunger to escape,
in any way.