the nowhere of believers.

60

I forced myself to believe,
I could pull myself out of tragic,
" Just stay, please. "
how hopeless, I panic.
in the end of the night,
do you ever ask if you took good care
of me or treated me right?
I crossed my lines,
to feel my lovers heart,
my lover who ruined my life,
you cut me off time to time,
to sharpen your words,
speaking knives when you arrive.
I cover myself with sheets,
listening to our old tapes,
remembering when you sing me a song,
but now all I hear is
" Darling, we don't get along. "
how scared I can be while I'm next to u,
how fragile of a heart now would weep,
and if you were the dark cave,
I'll let you swallow me deep.
cause lately I've been blind,
and I've been drinking
nothing but wine,
my head keeps telling me
you're the one I chose,
Never was the star I exposed,
and I'm sorry I slept too much lately,
I'm exhausted of you I had to sink,
I'm very ashamed so I had to think.
it's like winter
and you left my room door opened,
the sight I daily
never stopped imagining you coming back from.
without you I take long walks,
to sit where you used
to show me a new song, and sweet talk.
I took a breath real slow,
I didn't wanna give up.
it's too cold you, left me alone,
I had to stand up, and wakeup from this non ending situation.
I kept on praying and begging for god, for any other pain but this mind torture.

I had to wish upon stars, look up.
To get the wings
of your unconditional love.

-ClaryElvis