Brave Enough To Love Again

Chapter 7

Keane

"Alex, you moron! I'm gonna kill you!" I screamed in the direction of the bathroom.

"What? What did I do?" was his confused reply. Alex came out of the bathroom into the living room. He was still a little hungover because of last night.

"Is there food? I am starving!" my best friend asked, but I didn't hear him. I only half noticed his presence as he passed me by on the way to the kitchen.

I was walking back and forth in my living room, unsettled, indecisive and confused. I was in deep thought. I was torn.

"Hey! Why were you gonna kill me again?" Alex demanded to know, while he gorged himself on the food I had prepared for myself..

"Shut up! I'm thinking!" I hissed annoyed. His presence and blabbering were disrupting my thoughts.

Should I or should I not follow her? Her face that had blushed with embarrassment hindered me from blindly running after her. Her hasty disappearing act should have been the answer to that question, but I wanted to talk to her. There it was. I stopped in my tracks. The answer. I needed to talk to her. So I had to follow her. But what would I say?

"Is there more food? Do you mind if I help myself to the fridge?" I heard him ask at the back of my head. I just waved him away to stop him from bothering me.

I continued to walk around the den. I had to figure this thing out first. Whatever it was.

When I met her at the club, I instantaneously felt attracted to her. It was purely physical and I was hoping for a short tryst, to satisfy my hunger. That, I had to admit to myself. And it was nothing personal, I was just a man with needs.

But what just happened was unexpected, explosive, animalistic even. What surprised me more was that I felt addicted to her, like an addict who got hooked after one shot. The memory of our lips and bodies completely drawn to each other, sent adrenaline rushing through my veins, like a strong electric current that woke up my whole system, mind and body. And did I dare admit it? She impacted me deep down into my soul.

I couldn't let her go. I couldn't let that short, but incredible moment we shared be left as a once-in-a-lifetime-experience. I needed more of those, more of her.

BURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRP!

Alex's loud burp once again interrupted my thoughts.

"One more sound from you and I swear to god, I'm gonna rip your head off!" I barked menacingly at him.

"What is wrong with you today? Why so bitchy? Didn't get enough beauty sleep?" he asked jokingly.

I threw him a glance that promised pain, which made him lift both of his hands in surrender.

"Okay, okay. I'll leave you to your thoughts. Thank you for the food." he said as he finally left for the guest bedroom.

Where was I? The question was, how far was I ready to go with her? I hesitated. I didn't know. But I wanted to find out. We had to work this thing out, together. I had to talk to her.

I put on my sweatpants, left my apartment and walked to her door across from mine. I was about to knock at her door when...

Idiot!

I remembered, she had locked herself out. That was the reason why she was at my apartment in the first place. Wow. She completely put me out of balance, I needed to get my head on straight again.

I ran downstairs to find the superintendent. I didn't have to look for long because I bumped right into him. I asked about her and he replied that he had already given her the spare key, which meant that she had to be at home. I ran upstairs again and knocked at her door.