A Little More You

Chapter 18

Chapter 18

Clutching my chest, holding the part that I am preventing to fall now that every part of me is slowly falling for him. But I knew that is a lie. I knew that my heart is the first thing that has fallen out of it's place.

Leaning against my locker, I slowly sat down, with my hands on my head, trying to stop it from replaying the scene that happened a while ago, and those other happy moments I had with him. Slowly, I forgot all the hatred. But hurt consumed me. Hurt and Confusion that is.

I didn't understand that part. Why did he do that? Is he planning to toy my feelings? And when he has succeeded he'll break it like he always does? Why did he kiss me? To embarrass me because I have never been kissed before? Or is it because he's bored and decided to take his boredom at me?

I have millions of questions because of that one kiss.

That one kiss that made my heart beat accelerate.

I simply don't get it. First he's all mean like Satan's spawn. But after their fight with Riley, a miracle happened and he decided to be overly nice, and now he kissed me?

Sue me for ranting about one kiss with him.

The thing is, he stole my very first kiss. And I'm very confused as to why I kissed him back. It took, I think, 15 seconds of it.

I hit my head from behind to stop myself from thinking about it. I feel like an idiot. Well, I guess I always am.

I heard running steps, and I knew Connor followed me.

"Rj," I ignored him. "Please, I'm sorry. I..."

He plants a seat beside me, "Stay away from me Connor."

I hear him sigh, "Rj, please."

"NO! Just stop being sweet, or just stop being whatever you are. You're not funny anymore!" I fumed.

"What are you talking about?"

"Are you messing with my head?"

He smirked and carress my chin, "Well, would you rather want me to mess you in bed?"

"You fucking perv!"

He chuckled, "Relax, I'm trying to make you laugh."

"Well it didn't work, did it?"

He groaned, "Why are you so pissed?" Something in his tone that's telling me he's starting to get mad.

"Why did you kiss me?" I responded him bluntly with another question. I waited for his answer, but he just stares at me. Something in his eyes that I can't read.

I shake my head and started to stand, "Rj, please. Don't go."

"Then answer me." I demanded.

He sighed, "It's hard to..."

I snorted and jerked my hand from his grip.

"Rovie, is everything alright?" A familiar voice echoed. I turn to see Cameron looking so worried as he takes steps towards me.

Connor blocked him, "Stay out of this, Cammy."

"You don't talk for her." He jerked Connor's arm.

The blond guy started to push him, "No, YOU don't talk for her."

The guys stand firmly with fists curled into a ball. I hate how I feel like I'm in this stupid Twilight Vampire cliche kind of movie.

"Goddamit, enough!" Irritated, I walked out before I could witness any fight Cameron and Connor will be having. Gosh how I hate guys.

I rubbed my shoulders to give myself warmth when I exited the school, I hear footsteps coming that I chose to ignore.

"Rj, wait! Please!" I turn around to see him in his sad blue eyes, "I'm sorry I kissed you." My eyes couldn't stop looking at his face and how I felt his sincere sorry is. "I hate it Rj. I hate the fact that..." before he finish his sentence he took steps closer to me, he gave me a small smile and wipe the tears on my face. I feel so overly dramatic when he kissed me. It doesn't feel right. Or does it?

"Just spit it out already, Connor."

"Snappy are we?" I glared at him. He snorts a laugh and looks at me in a serious articulation, "I hate the fact that I can't pull myself away from you. No matter how hard I fight, the more I want to stay."

My eyebrows meet, "Did you just quote that from our song?"

"Yes." I rolled my eyes at him. "But I mean that. It's not just the song."

"What do you mean?"

He took my hand and placed it to his hard chest, where his heart is beating. I look at him in confusion, "Rj, I like you."

My breathing stopped.

"Wh-What?"

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