•Tough love• yoonkook [BTS]

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Yoongi's POV
(Point of view)

I fell on my bed covering my face with my hands.
Min Yoongi! Don't cry. Just don't! You are stronger than that.
I kept telling that to my self while tears started covering my face! Why was I being so emotional?Why was I crying because my friends didn't tell me they were going out?

Oh! What a question! I've already said the answer! THEY DIDN'T TELL ME THEY WERE GOING OUT!
I knew I never really belonged into that "Group" but I couldn't  bear with it.
They went out and the didn't tell me. I'm more angry that Jungkook didn't tell me A Damn Thing!

-Stop thinking about him!

-I CANNOT! Can U find a way to do this you... you... silly stupid mind???

He was such a little kid when I first met him! 13!!! Me? 18! God!
He couldn't even speak loud and everybody laughed at him!
I hated watching it. I stood up for him and protected him from all this awful people! I helped him through as long it was needed. I was like, his only friend in that school. Every one from my grade laughed at me for being..."friends" with a boy of that age. But I didn't care. I knew how to make them to shut up and respect me... so it was really easy. They all knew I wasn't afraid to get into trouble for him.
But now... now what?

Now his out with MY friends, the people that I Introduced to him and he didn't tell me A DAMN Thing!

Everything started when I graduated! I left that school but I introduced Jungkook to some of my friends and made them promise me they were going to take care of him! And they did it so well that he started to forget about me!

Jungkook was something more to me than just my friend. He was close to me the way only a brother could be. For one and a half year we came so close that leaving for university was really tough for me. Jungkook and I were together for three days in a row with him trying to convince me not to go to the university, or take him with me! That day I held him tight and promised him.

"I'll always be with you. I'll always be right next to you when you need me. Just call me and I'll take the first train, plane, car, bike, or motorcycle that I'll find and come to protect you. Just call me ok?"

That day I felt so weird with him crying inside my arms because I was leaving. I felt I loved him more that I could ever possibly love a person.
I was visiting him 2 times per month and I stayed for all the vacation stuff, you know Christmas, summer... and now that I managed to come for a whole week, just to see him, he clearly avoids me.

We supposed to be Friends. Me, Him, Taehyung, Jimin and Hoseok. And now three of them (or maybe all four I don't know) are out having fun, leaving me all by myself in that room crying.
I should have NEVER protected Jungkook. Never stand up for him. I should have left my life the way it was. Alone, but happy, trying to avoid the girls that stuck on me and keep trying to reach my dream, to be Rapper...

"THE PERFECT LIFE FOR YOONGI"

I can see it in front of me with big bright letters.
I've tried to explain to a friend of mine that lives in Seoul the way I was feeling the last few days and he gave me a very strange advice.
He actually said something (laughing of course) like:
"Ohh! Yoongi is in love!"
If it was possible to grab someone and punch him, while you are talking with him in a call by skype, he would be dead!!
I can still remember me panicking and turning red, so much that my friend, Jin, got scared and kept asking if I'm alright and saying that he was just making a joke!

But after that call I started thinking about Jungkook.
His cute face...
His body...
I slapped my face so badly that I still have a mark. I was doing like a five year old that fell in love with a baby! And in that case the baby wasn't even born (because if I was the five year old how could I love someone five years younger??)
Now that I think about it I have to talk to Jungkook. Tell him how I feel. I wish things were different. I wish he was as old as I am so we could...

-Shut the f..k up Yoongi! You are not in love with Jeon Jungkook.

-That's right...

I. DONT. LOVE. JEON. JUNGKOOK!

Or maybe I do?

What's going on with my life...