•Tough love• yoonkook [BTS]

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Jungkook's POV

Some time passed, three months actually. We started practicing for our debut with a song called "No more dream" which is more like a rap song with that meaning that I was trained like a rapper, something I didn't really like. Our daily practice practically ended at 11:00 pm and started at 10:00 but after Yoongi was criticized about his dancing the practice for me and him usually ended at 1:00 am.
I didn't mind, he never told me to stay with him I just did. Sometimes I even went back to our dorm and pretended to be asleep so when the other members were sleeping I could go back to our practice room where he was. Throughout those months he wasn't talking a lot, he looked like he didn't care and I can say he almost avoided the other members. Not in a bad way, he always replied when someone asked him something and didn't mind to continue the conversations, he just didn't start the conversation himself. He would either wake up too early or too late to avoid the good mornings and the stuffy bathroom. But the times he would wake up earlier he would always place a kiss carefully on my cheek and cover me with the blankets. That thing always made me turn red and i was afraid that someone might have seen that kiss. Most of the times I would get up and follow him inside bathroom where I would kiss him like I was trying to gain energy from him, and he would kiss me back with the same passion. But the previous week something happened and we stopped.

Last week

I wrapped my arms around his neck and he hugged me too. Our eyes locked and so did our lips, gently at first and violently as it went on. This was how our every day kisses were. They weren't so romantic, they were like a reminder that we belonged to each other, that we loved each other and gentle kisses couldn't prove that! They felt like lies. But that day I saw the door opening so I pushed Yoongi back, but our swollen lips and the guilty look in our eyes couldn't lie.
Seokjin walked in and he looked frustrated. He grabbed both of us and dragged us outside our apartment and stuck us at the wall.
"I've accepted that situation for almost 3 f...ing months! I told you I wouldn't say anything to anyone about your... relationship, I said I wouldn't try to convince you to break up, but I can't stand it anymore! Every time you go in that bathroom and..."he hesitated.
"Seokjin shut up, what did you just think!" Yoongi yelled at him disgusted and threw his hand of him.
"Yoongi, listen here! I didn't drag you outside to talk about your choice. What I want you to do is to stop what you're doing everyday, what if someone walks in and finds out? What are you going to do, hah?" Seokjin hissed. "And what about you Jungkook? I know I can't change him, but you? You seemed like a logical person!"
I pushed Seokjin and without saying a word I walked inside again.

Now

Jimin, Taehyung and I though, became a really strong unit and we usually made our hyungs laugh at our stupid fights. Even Yoongi giggled with us, and Jimin and Taehyung really appreciated it when he did and always tried to cheer him up.

Yoongi seems to be close with Jimin and it makes me happy to see him finally interacting with someone they way he does with me. He's always ready to fight Seokjin and I think that's because he's afraid of him spitting out our secret. He will either smile at Hoseok's bright personality and the things he does do cheer us up or roll his eyes and tell him to go away.
Namjoon and Yoongi though... they treat each other like brothers, it's like they've found a person alike to them. It's not like my relationship with him, we are complete opposites but Yoongi and Namjoon I think could rightfully call themselves Best friends.
Namjoon is the only person to fight Yoongi if he's being unreasonably mad, he's the only person to correct his lyrics and even though Yoongi will fight him back, in the end he'll calm down and discuss the matter with him.
Yes Hoseok will point out too the mistakes he does when he dances but Yoongi doesn't care so much about them. He listens carefully and tries to correct himself. But the lyrics he writes are really precious for him and he reacts badly if someone says something about them. So it's really surprising that Namjoon managed to make a correction that Yoongi agreed to.

Now about us! He always sits next to me if there isn't someone already by my side and when I try to help him with our choreography he never says no. The times he continues to practice after everyone is gone we don't kiss or do whatever, he is really focused on dancing. Sometimes Hoseok stays too so he can help him... but usually when he stays I go back to our dorm with the others.

I'm still afraid of taking a bath while the others are awake so I bath after they have fallen asleep. Jimin noticed that one day and asked me about it. He kind of scolded me for this fear of mine and after that day he always makes me bath before they go to sleep. And I'm getting used to it...
The only thing I miss is Yoongi... I truly miss him. I thought that being with him, living under the same roof would mean that we could be together the way we were when he came to visit me back to Busan. But it's not like that. I want to hold his hand and kiss his cheek but I can't! I want to hug him and exchange love words with him but I can't! I... i just can't...!

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Dear people hello. I'm here to tell you a problem of mine. A few days ago I found a boy that I like (no it's not from Korea or a K-drama, he's real and lives in my hometown) if you notice our relationship you will end up in the conclusion that I'm a heartless  unromantic bish... (which I'm definitely not!) And I want to hit my head in a wall!!!!!!!
Anyways that was for today love and kisses because I definitely love all my readers!

Pangie🖤