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Jungkook's POV

I woke up easily and early the next morning smiling for some really weird reason (Jungkook!!! It's not the weekend. Frown!) and then of course I remembered everything and I wanted to cry. School! Why? I don't want to go, I want to stay home and watch some television. The rumor, not actually rumor because it is true but whatever, will be all over the high school and I am going to be bullied AGAIN. Thanks to Yoongi, they stopped and now because of him and our relationship, they'll start again. What am I supposed to do? Be happy and excited? I am not senseless, I'm actually very sensitive. It's funny how similar these words are. Both of them have the word sense inside them but they are complete opposites.

I hugged my pillow and forced myself to cry. It usually feels better after a good crying. But I forgot that I had so many reasons to cry that I wouldn't be able to stop. From where should I start? Firstly, my boyfriend lives away from me and I'll have to wait two years till I am able to go and live with him. Secondly, I have a BOYfriend and some people can't accept that. They think it's not natural and blah blah blah.... Thirdly, I have no friends. Have you ever sat down and started to think about the people YOU consider as your friends and then you realize that they are either fake or they starting to act weird, avoid you, being rude etc. That's what is happening to me right now. Jimin and Taehyung were my only friends after Yoongi left. And they are both very good friends with each other, so Tae won't leave Jimin for me. We aren't even in the same age, and this is their last year in this school. Even if Jimin and I were fine, I would still stay all by self for the next two years. Goshhhh!! I need to change school. And wait there's more!I think Yoongi is mad at me. He hasn't texted me at all since yesterday morning. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO. And I keep forgetting the honorifics!

I love him I can't stand it if he's angry. Maybe I should text him first... my pillow was wet and my face was bathed in tears. I looked to see if my door was shut. Luckily it was and I left out a small scream. My legs started to hit the bed and the sheets. My hair were stuck all over my face and I kept crying while completely messing up my bed. I didn't realize though that I wasn't crying in silence anymore and my mom's bionic ear was able to hear me. She ran inside my room and kneeled down next to my bed.
"Kookie, what's wrong?" she asked worriedly.
"Don't... don't...CALL ME THAT MOM!" I yelled at her but then I added quietly "I...don't like it!"
"Love! You used to like it when Yoongi called you this". she looked at me confused.
"Not anymore. Only he..." I mumbled through my sobs, but I immediately stopped.
"What's going on? Are they bullying you again at school?" She caressed my forehead cleaning it from my hair.
"Mom!" I said and sat up to look at her. "Do you love me?" I asked her, feeling depressed.
"Jungkook!! What are you even talking about? You are my my only child... my love! Of course I love you!" she applied surprised.
"Mom! Listen... I know this. There's something else that I need to know. Are you going to love me no matter what I'll end up being? Will you still love me if... I don't know...!" I asked her and grabbed her hands to make her look at me deeply inside my eyes.
"Jungkook... I will always love you my child! Nothing and no one will be able to change this!"
What? Did she just say no one? Does she know?
"Why are you asking me such weird questions? What have you done?" she continued.
"There so many things you don't know mom! So many... and you...I'm sure that if you find out... you won't even want to see me in front of you!"
She got up from the floor and sat next to me on the bed. Her hand rolled on my shoulder and hugged me.
"What is it? I seriously can't imagine anything that bad that you could do. Look at me please! Jungkook!!"
"Yes?" I asked and curled up inside her hug.
"You're such a baby Jungkook. I am sure that you didn't hurt anyone and that someone harmed you. That you feel guilty for someone else's fault!" She whispered and I couldn't hold a smile. Then I started to cry again for no particular reason. I just did, because my mom's hug has always the same warmth and the feeling of safety.
"Shhh! Shh love... hush now. Everything is going to be alright!" she said to calm me down but I got up and stared at her.
"Mom! I'm in a relationship with Yoongi!"

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nae pi ttam nunmul
nae majimak chumeul
da gajyeoga ga
nae pi ttam nunmul
nae chagaun sumeul
da gajyeoga ga

I AM SERIOUSLY GOING CRAZY WITH THIS ALBUM!!!!!!

Tell me! What do you think his mom is going to say, loves?