•Tough love• yoonkook [BTS]

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In that photo Jungkook looks like he is digging his nails into Suga's back!😂

Jungkook's POV

"Hey! Yoongi!" He looked at me for a moment and after that he opened his mouth to speak.
"Hyung!" He said.
"What? Yoongi..."
"HYUNG!" He said again louder.
"Yoongi! I..."
"Don't call me that, you have no right! Hyung!"
"No! You are Yoongi, I've never called you hyung!" I tried to make him listen to me.
He came closer to me and he stared at me with a look that I thought it could of burned me. That's why I refused to look him straight in his eyes.
"Get out!" his voice was calmer than before but I could still understand that he was angry.
"Yoongi! Please listen to me..."
He interrupted me again.
"DON'T CALL ME THAT!!" he took a big breath. "Please leave me alone!"
"Yoongi... hyung!" I added fast. He opened his mouth but he closed it again when hearing the word hyung. "Please listen to me! Let me explain!"
"There's nothing to explain Jungkook! It's over! Don't talk to me again!!" When he called me with my name things were bad! He always called me Kookie, that caused me more problems in school when he left.
"No! There are many things to explain! And you are going to listen to me!" I was actually freezing and I needed something warm. Even a hug would of been okay!! I walked pass him and I sat on his bed.
"Yoongi!" I saw him ready to complain so I added. "Yoongi hyung! I'm sorry! So, so, so sorry! I treated you so badly! I called you names and... I actually tried to forget you, but Wait!" I took a big breath. "You don't know why!"
"Isn't it obvious? You are a disrespectful kid!" he said with poison running after every word.
"No! Yoongi!" I got surprised when he didn't stopped me for calling him with his name. "Let me show you something, give me your laptop". He looked at me a little bit surprised but in the end he passed me his laptop. I tapped his password, I always knew every password for his... everything.
I was about to show him a video that I took 3 years ago the last day before he left for university, but I actually saw it in front of me when I turned on his laptop. I turned to look at him and he just nodded his head.
"I saw it a few minutes ago!" He sat next to me. "What did you wanted to say before I interrupt you?"
"That I love you!" I got surprised with my own self. I said something like that without shuttering.
"Like a friend right?" I could see his worried expression.
"No! Like... something more! I loved you from the beginning. When you firstly saved me and you tried help me and give me courage so I could speak louder, I loved you. Firstly like a friend, then like a brother and in the end,  two months before you were about to leave actually, I fell in love with you. I wanted you to be next to me every single moment of my life and when you weren't, I was feeling so... empty, so... nothing!" While I was opening my heart to him I didn't even bear to look at his face. I was looking down at the floor and when I finished my confession I shyly turned my head to face him.

He was sitting right next to me with his eyes looking straight to mine. I was expecting him to come closer to me and kiss me, passionately. But he didn't! He got up and he started to walk inside the room.
"Hyung!" I said. "Do you forgive me?" I asked him again.
"Why?" He muttered.
"What? Hyung, are you okay?"
"Why?" He said again but he continued. "Why? Why are you doing this? I just managed to make myself to stop thinking about you and your awful behavior. Why did you come here? You apologize and you expect me to forgive you. And you also confess that you have feelings for me! How do you think that I'm going to react? You think that I'm going to kiss you or something?" he's voice broke. I got up and approached him. He wasn't looking at me so he didn't see me putting my arms around him. When he realized it he pulled away.
"Don't!" He said a bit more louder that he wanted to. "Don't touch me please!"
"Hyung! Can't you understand? I'm in love with you! I love you.... So, so much!" I suddenly forgot the cold and the pain in my hands and knees. The pain of his rejection hurt more that a thousand knifes. Yes! More!! He didn't respond he was just looking at the wall while breathing loudly.

"I'm not a f*ggot!"(A.N. I hate using that word you understand what I mean with it right?)he finally said.
I didn't think of that! I couldn't believe that he said such thing! It didn't even cross my mind, that someone could see me, or him, as a....you_know_what, if we end up being together.
"You shouldn't care! You shouldn't even think of that! This is not an answer! And not a proper question to ask yourself. Asking: 'Am I a... F*ggot?' No it isn't right. The question is: 'Do I love Jungkook? Am I in love with him?' That's the question Yoongi! Are you in love with me?" I looked at him with eyes filled with hope, that he does.
"I don't know! I seriously don't know!" he said and after that he sat down at the floor still without facing me. After that I heard some weird noises.
"Hyung?"(Bliah! I have to get used to it! It sounds awfully! But anyway!) "Are you crying?"
"No! I don't!!" he said but afterwards I heard his sniffing. Then I sat down and hugged him from behind. "Don't!" I said. I've never actually seen him crying before. He was always such a happy person. I was the one that used to cry every day and every night.
"Remember what you've said to me the last day that we spend together?" He didn't respond, I kept talking. "Don't cry because of me! I... I..."
"I feel like s..t. Don't do it please!" He finished the sentence I started."Yes I remember, I remember every single word from that day! I will never forget! Never!" His words... no! You mustn't cry!
"Hyung!" I whispered to his ear. "I love you!" I took a big breath. "And I'll always do! Till the day I die!"

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