•Tough love• yoonkook [BTS]

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Jungkook's POV

I "forced"(in a way) my boyfriend to break up with me. Why didn't I just tell him the truth? Why did I say such thing? Why? I was sure he didn't have enough money to spent the night at a hotel, so I had to go out and look for him. There were two possible ways that he could of gone. I chose the one right because that's where the bus stop for where he lives is. I started running fast (a.n. I'm so sorry that they always run I know it's a bit frustrating to see it all the time) and I didn't look around me that much. I crossed someone sitting down at the pavement but I didn't really think that it could be him. I only realized it a few minutes later, and then I just wished he didn't notice me too.

Relieved I realized he was still just sitting there. I ran and hugged him. He didn't make a move to break the hug so I hugged him tighter. I could feel his tears running down his cheeks on my arms.

"I'm sorry. I'll tell you all the truth. I was stupid. I don't deserve you, and you don't deserve someone so stupid and silly and ugly and... and..." I started saying but I burst into tears. He didn't reply and I kept talking through my sobs. "I'm officially a trainee at an music industry. I am practicing at a choreography, a hard choreography for me because I just started dancing but my... my teacher says that I'm talented. Can you imagine me as a band member?" I said again with a little smile.
He lifted his head and looked at me with his swollen eyes.
"That was it? That was all? And you didn't believe I would understand something so simple like this? Huh? And I have told you that I really wanted to audition to be a rapper. Why didn't you tell me?" He asked and I looked at him surprised.
"I didn't know that. So you are you going to came with me and become a trainee too?" I asked worried.
"You wouldn't like that? Just imagine both of us being in a band. Wouldn't it be fantastic? But that means that..."
"Exactly we wouldn't be able to be together. We would have to break up". I finished his sentence
"But we would be together for ever! We would live together, sleep together, eat together, sing and perform together. I'll come with you. And it isn't even sure that we will succeed". He answered and I tried to see the bright side of it.
"Does that mean that we are still a couple?" I asked playfully
"I hate you!" He answered and the kissed my cheek rubbing my tears away. "I hate you so... so much! You make me soooo upset! But I...I wil always love you!" He said and hugged me. His hands messed with my hair . I was just standing there hugging him back, sniffing at his smell. After a while I moved away and started at his cute eyes, my palms grabbed his neck, to force him to look back at me. His hands grabbed my head and turned it a bit so our lips could connect easily. This kiss had the taste of salt...from our tears.

Then we got up and walked, while holding hands, back home. I had forgot to take my keys so my mum opened the door. I could see the surprise in her eyes but after I glared at her she didn't make any comment. She only asked if we wanted to sleep at the same room and I said yes immediately without listening to the second choice we had.

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He slept on the floor eventually even though I tried to convince him to come and sleep in the bed with me. I felt so guilty for sleeping inside my comfy bed while he was on the floor, yes with everything he needed to be comfortable but still. And to be honest with you I wanted to sleep next to him like this time on the hotel. So I waited until he was asleep to get off my bed and lay down next to him.

I hugged him and placed my head on his shoulder. I was sure he understood me but he didn't get up to 'scold' me for leaving my bed. I think he too wanted me to spent the night next to him. I was proved right when about five minutes after he turned around 'looking' at me with our noses touching and he muttered:
"Silly! I love you!"
I hugged him and tried to sleep.

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I woke up and we were still facing each other. I smiled and came close to him to place a kiss on his lips. I then got up and sat on my bed just looking at him sleeping peacefully. Then I noticed a tear running down his cheek, I saw his fists getting stiffen and I could understand that he was having a bad dream. I gently poked him with my palm to wake him up. He didn't move. I did it again a bit harder. He opened his eyes, allowing some tears to get out, letting out a cry. He looked scared.

When he realized I was standing beside him he hugged me furiously and I was just standing there confused for a moment before I returned the hug.
"What happened? Did you have a bad dream?" I asked while he was still holding me.
He nodded a 'yes'.
"What was it?" I asked
"I thought I lost you. I felt so broken-hearted. I felt like I didn't have a heart anymore to be specific. I just want to warn you about something Jungkook!" He said.
"Well, go ahead and tell me!"
"I love you and you no that, but this isn't the point. The point is that when I get very close to a person I get addicted with them. That means that if you leave me, it will be freaking hard for me to repair the mess you will cause. I don't want to frighten you, just warn you. If you go away now the break will be fixable, so make a decision!" He said and in my lips I had that sour smile.
"Yoongi! What the Heck! What are even saying?! I love you, I love your addiction for me and I promise, I will never abandon you." I answered. "And you should always remember that! Gosh I shouldn't let you dream. You talk about nonsense after it!"

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Hi guys. I looked at this chapter again and corrected the mistakes I found. Please don't judge me for them!!

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