•Tough love• yoonkook [BTS]

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Jungkook's POV

I'm in a bar with Jimin and Taehyung. They took me out just to make me forget. They can't understand the reason that I'm so unhappy and upset. I... I just...

"Leave me alone Jimin" I said to him while he passed me a drink.
"Yoongi will be angry if he finds out I'm drinking!"
"Again him!! F..k him! Enjoy your life!!!" he screamed trying to make me hear him over the loud music.

I didn't answer. I just wanted to leave and go find Yoongi. Hug him and apologize. I just... again... I can't express myself. I was such a fool to believe them. To let them convince me that Yoongi doesn't care about me.

"He comes only twice per month! That's not friendship! He doesn't love you. He doesn't give a penny"

The thing is that I love him, yes more than a friend, but more than a brother too. I... love him!

I clearly love him, but I think he sees me just as his beloved little brother that needs him desperately. I can still remember the promise that he gave me almost 3 years ago.

"I'll always be with you. I'll always be right next to you when you need me. Just call me and I'll take the first train, plane, car, bike, or motorcycle that I'll find and come to protect you. Just call me ok?"

But I never called him to come and save me from anything. Because the only thing that I wanted to escape from was the misery of being alone.

I had to leave this place, the smell of cigarettes and alcohol made me want throw up! I shouldn't let them take me here.

I got out of the bar and started to walk away. I didn't want to talk to anybody. Specially Jimin and Taehyung.

Oh Yoongi you and your friends...
God... no friends...NO They Are Not Friends. They Are...
SNAKES! Mean people, evil!
They forgot you... three weeks after you left, they forgot you Yoongi. That's what I'm going to tell you. Oh Yoongi... all this... is your fault. Why Yoongi why? Why did you trust these people? Why did you introduce them to me? Why did you make me think that they were going to be my friends... people that could take your place?

NO!! No no no! No one could take your place...
I wanted to hold my tears. No... no tears today. This is my fault... no it's yours... no no Jimin's and Taehyung's! God what's going on?

My phone was moving like crazy in my pocket.

Yoongiii
KID???
Taehyung!!
I
AM
YOUR
F...ing
HYUNG!!!!!!!!
Delivered @ 3:40am

Yoongiii
JUNGKOOK TELL TAEHYUNG TO TEXT ME!!!!!
Delivered @ 3:41am

Yoongiii
If you ever dare to call me KID again
I
WILL
BREAK
YOUR
PRETTY
LITTLE
SHITTY
FACE!!
Delivered @ 3:42am

Oh this is going to be tough I wanted to text him and tell him... that...
No... I wont text him... I'll go find him... talk to him...

3hours before

"Yoongi is texting me... Jimin... I don't think this is a good idea!!"
I told him I started to feel extremely uncomfortable. "I think I should tell him to come over..."
"Oh Kookie... shut up! Why call him? He won't let you stay... he will come and pick you up!" Jimin told me.

The bad thing is that he is right. Yoongi wouldn't let me stay here at the age of 16! He might be right though and do this only because he wants the best for me, that's what Yoongi does but... still...

"You are a grown man! You can take care of yourself!" Says Jimin while watching me so broody.

Thanks Jimin that's what I was thinking! So let's go and have some fun. I said that to Jimin and I added fast:
"But let me text him and say him that I'm out. Okay?"
"Whatever!" was the answer that Jimin gave me so I text Yoongi back. The thing is that, before I could realize it, we end up calling names to each other.

The conversation ended with me telling him that he's an annoying piece of s..t. Disgusted with myself I passed my phone to Taehyung telling him to hold it because I didn't even want to see it. Later much later I found out that Taehyung was the one who tried to apologize for my behavior to Yoongi and I felt like the biggest a...ole in the whole world.
That's when I left the bar.

Now
I'm walking towards to where Yoongi lives, trying to find out what the heck I'm going to tell him. I'm sure that he doesn't even want to see my face. He will leave and never come back. I don't blame him. Not at all! I've mixed feelings actually.
I feel betrayed, because he left me and let those, beasts to... "take care of me".
I feel Stupid, because I talked like this to my best friend.
I feel like a fool, because I believed what they told me... people who didn't know about the strange friendship between me and him.
Also I fell... sad... depressed... and... actually I feel like I broke up with a girl or something!
This is how it should feel like, right?
Yes I'm sure this is how it must feels like.

My hands are cold. I'm actually freezing, I forgot my jacket in the bar. I'm not going back there! So there's an other reason to go to Yoongi's. If I stay out here and try to walk till my house they will find me dead in the steps of a house. Yoongi's motel is 15 minutes on foot from here.
I staid still for a moment so I could find the right direction and see which road I should pick. After that I started to walk fast, and even faster. I actually end up running as fast as my legs could allow.

I'm coming Yoongi! This is real, this is me!
Just wait and you'll see.