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YOONGI'S POV

After I finished my shift I ran back home, packed a small bag and left running to catch the last bus. I achieved that and sat down at the almost empty bus. I was so tired and sleepy that I felt like falling in a lethargy and never waking up again. I was actually used to it. I'm always like that on Fridays. I sleep at 2 with 3am or something and I wake at 8am the whole week. It's exhausting. All of my... "friends" are inviting me to go out with on Fridays and Saturdays but I'm always so tired that I usually reject their offer.
For a moment I thought of putting my headphones on to hear some music. I changed my mind immediately, because I would fall asleep in a sec.

After a quite long trip the bus finally arrived at Jungkook's hometown. I can't call it my hometown you see. I actually hate this place, it reminds me of so many things I want to forget. I got off the bus and walked straight to where Jungkook lives.

I knocked at the door and checked the time at my phone to make sure that they wouldn't be asleep.
10:30.

-Yoongi relax they aren't four year olds to fall asleep so early.

-Yes but...

The door opened and I saw Jungkook's mum standing in frond of me, a bit surprised.
"Yoongi? Is that you?" She asked me.
"Yes miss Jeon!" I smiled.
She immediately hugged me and I hugged her back. That woman was really kind to me and she seemed to love me.
"Come in child". She said and dragged me inside. "You look exhausted, are you alright?"
"Yes... I just have a lot of homework and I work at a gas station so I can be able to pay the rent for my house... but anyway I didn't come here to complain about my life. I came to see you and ...Jungkook. Really, where's Jungkook?"I asked suspiciously.
"Oh dear... " she shuttered "He started staying out late this week. I tried talk to him but...he refused to answer me".
"Wha... I mean... I see." I said trying to hide my worried face.
"Yoongi... I know!" She said and smiled at me.
"What... what do you mean?" I asked scared.
"I know about you and him. I also understand that you freaked out, but please, try talk to him. Go and hide inside his room to surprise him. I know that he loves you and that he'll open his heart to you. Please! Do it for me".

I just nodded and went up stairs. I sat down at Jungkook's desk chair and looked around his room hopping to find any clues for the where he was. I couldn't hold some tears as long as I was doing that. I walked close to his window and looked outside. It was really dark but I didn't look outside hopping to see. I was just nervous and I wanted to do something. A million thoughts crossed my mind. I imagined that he was on drugs, that he ... I didn't know. I only knew that I would die if I didn't see him.

My hand came up and covered my eyes. My breathing became intense so did my walking up and down the room. So intense that I didn't hear Jungkook entering the room.

"Yoongi?!" He yelled and turned on the lights.
"Jungkook!" I yelled back and walked quickly close to him. I grabbed him and stacked him on the wall. I wanted to kiss him, but I was so scared that he would reject my kiss. So I just I stood there looking at his eyes. Then he did it. He... HE. Kissed me. Relieved I kissed him back passionately. But I broke the kiss quickly and slapped him.

"You young idiot! You scared me so
f...ing much! Where have you been? Why didn't you respond to my texts? Why did you do that?" I cried and freed him from my hold. I then turned my back to him and walked again towards the window.
"Yoongi! Please forgive me. I won't do that again!" He said and placed his hand on my shoulder.
I felt a shiver down my spine caused by his action but I threw his hand away.
"Where have you been?" I asked again.
"I can't tell you!" He replied
"Jungkook! Tell me where you've been!" I yelled at him.
"I can't tell you hyung!" He answered.
I turned to face him.
"DON'T CALL ME THAT! What happened to you Kookie?" I said and grabbed him from his arms.
"Yoongi! I just can't tell you..."
"Why? What have you done?"
"I haven't done anything! Please don't think of something bad. I just..."
"You what Jungkook?" I asked him again.
"You won't understand!" It was his answer. I felt like my heart was smashed. I stopped holding him and just looked at him. Then I started walking towards the door.
"Yoongi! Where are you going?" He asked. I didn't respond. "Are you leaving? You where supposed to stay for the weekend!" Again I stayed silent. He ran and grabbed my shoulder.
"Yes I'm leaving goodbye". I said and then kissed him on the lips again trying not to burst into tears. That was the last kiss I was giving him. I wanted to enjoy it as much as I could. I wanted to remember him. It was a kind and gentle kiss. "Goodbye Jeon Jungkook!"
I then ran downstairs and left the house before he was able to chase me, or before I change my mind and go hug him and force him to tell me what's going on with him. The fact that he didn't want to explain me his behavior was so painful for me. I thought he trusted me.

I felt my phone ringing in my pocket. I wiped my tears and looked at it.

Kookie
Is calling you

And this "baby" photo came up. I wanted to scream. I actually had broke up with him. Something inside me was fighting against my decision. I hung up on him. He called again immediately. I sat down at the cold pavement letting it ring. He wasn't going to hung up, so I did it again instead. He kept calling me. The seventh time I picked up.

"What is it? What do you want from me?"
"Where are you Yoongi? There's no bus for where you live! You're going to catch a cold and I'm sure you don't have enough money to go and spent the night in a hotel again. Please come over I'm worried!"
"Good! I want you to feel the way I felt all this time you didn't respond to my texts and how I feel now that you aren't telling me where you going every night!" I said and hung up.

He called again but this time I wasn't going to pick it up. It was actually really cold but I didn't care. I was just sitting there with my head touching my knees.

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Do you hate me?
Good!
Because I hate me right now!!!!
Kisses loves❤️