•Tough love• yoonkook [BTS]

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For the first time in this book I write two Yoongi's POV the one after the other!

Yoongi's POV

I took a big breath and leaned back on the couch.
"It's complicated!"
"I know! But that's the only thing that I know!!" Jungkook interjected me.
"They lived with me for only 5 years! After that they left and they paid a woman to come and take care of me. Every three months that woman disappeared and an other one took her place. I got used to that but it never felt okay! One day, in my fifteenth birthday I received a letter from... them... that was telling me, I was old enough and they wouldn't pay any women to take care of me. They were going to send me five hundred dollars so I could buy food and pay the water and the electricity, they actually wrote that they were kind enough to pay the rent. You don't know how it felt and feels like... you don't know that feeling, that nobody loves and cares about you! That's when I started with the "Bad Boy's" behavior. That's when everything got smashed inside of me and I started to practice on boxing my self and going out with girls. They always paid for me you see! I had no one to stop me from turning into such thing. Something that I have never done though was bullying and drinking (a lot) of alcohol. When you came up I felt really sorry for you, I could see that you were an interesting dude and I took care of you. My image as "The Biggest Playboy" was ruined but I didn't really care. It felt nice having someone to love me. I thought that your parents liked me too, anyway. When I had my eighteenth birthday I received an other letter from them telling me that they were going to stop sending me money and that I should find a job. I, right now, work on a gas station three times per week and this week my boss gave me a small vacation. I study hard so I can get a scholarship, as you see my life isn't like yours! I have to work hard to get wherever I want to get!" I ended my narration and got up. He did the same and hugged me.
"I didn't... I... wouldn't of say such thing if I knew..." he stammered.
"You don't know how it feels to be hated! I always wondered why? I wondered why they abandoned me; what did I do wrong? Was I such an awful looking kid?" I joked trying to ease the situation. He looked me straight my eyes.
"Yoongi! I'm sorry! I can now understand the reason that I can't come with you. I'll wait for 2 years alright?" he said to me.
"I think that yes; it is alright!"
"Yoongi! I forgot! God I'm such an idiot, I started dance lessons. Not ballet you silly, hip hop!" he changed the subject and he seemed very excited!
"Bravo! Jungkook that's fantastic! You wanna be a professional?" I asked him interested.
"I want to be... naah... forget about it!" he said and moved his hand to show me that it wasn't something important!
"Tell me!" I pressed him.
"No forget about it! It's embarrassing!" He responded turning red.
"A reminder! Last night you told me that I shouldn't be embarrassed for liking you! So what can be more weird than that?" I said and pushed him gently with my palm.
"It will sound like I'm a f*g..." he started to say but he stopped. I looked at him surprised with his reply!
"You actually are gay, but you shouldn't care about this! You've told me that yesterday! Tell me!"
"I like singing lately! Some people say that I have a nice voice!"he  applied and hid his face inside his hands.
"You mean... well that's fantastic! Sing to me!" I said impressed. "And saying that this would make you look gay, it's like you're saying that every singer is gay... not that I mind, but I'm sure that plenty of them aren't!" I comforted him.
"Thanks... but I'm not singing to you!! No way!!! Drink your cocoa!" he said and turned his head away from me to hide his red cheeks.
"It's ok! If your embarrassed with me!" I told him without any bad meaning. The cup touched my lips and I slowly drank a few sips. The sweet and in the same time slightly bitter taste of chocolate filled my mouth! My lips curved into a smile.
"What are you thinking?" Jungkook asked me.
"It's just that... never mind! Come here! I need some hugs!" I sighed him to come closer. He laid down with his head on my legs, I approached him and gently kissed his lips. It was just a peck.
"Yoongi Hyung, what's the difference between a peck and a kiss!" he asked me after a while.
"Ask Jimin about that!" I said and smiled.
"Don't mention him! He's mean!" he applied and his smile disappeared.
"Ohh! Jimmie it's meanie!!" I said with the voice of a five year old. "It's ok! I don't care about him!" I continued.
"But I care! I don't like him! He's being jealous of our relationship!" he complained.
"He doesn't even now that we're together! Get serious!" I scolded him.
"I'm scared Yoongi!" he said and yawned. "Scared and... and... so sleepy! I need to sleep!" he added and fell asleep. (Yes I know, like a freaking cartoon!)My hand touched his hair and played with them. I kissed his forehead and smiled once more, then quietly I got up and walked silently to his parents room and searched for a blanket When I got back I covered him with it and kissed his lips.
"I love you! It's not the first time I say this, but it's still the same. I'll always love you Jungkook, till the day I die!" Then I sat on a chair and tried to sleep too.

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Wings are killing me! I'm like dead! Deadly dead!!!!!!