•Tough love• yoonkook [BTS]

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Jungkook's POV

"W hat?" she stuttered astonished. Her eyes opened wide and she looked ready to cry.
"Mom? Why are you like this? You promised". I asked her wounded.
"Wh...what do you mean relationship, Jungkook?" she said instead of answering to me.
"I mean what relationship means. He is... my boyfriend!" I explained hopping she won't scream
"Really? You are... gay?" she asked and I hopped that she said the last word scared and not disgusted.
"Not exactly mom. I'm just in love with him, I had a crush on him for the last three years!" I answered her and shyly moved my hand to touch hers.
She didn't move her hand and that was a relief.
"You're not disgusted of your son right?"
She didn't answer she just looked with her eyes empty at my side.
"You won't disown me right?" I asked suspiciously.
"Don't be a fool my child!" She said and gently punched me in the  shoulder. I looked straight inside her eyes and now I was ready to cry too. She closed me inside her hug and kissed my head.
"Will you still love me the same?" I asked and my voice cracked.
"Of course! I will always love you!"
"No matter what my flaws are?"
"Yes!"
"And if I am not strong enough to face my life?"
"I promise"
"And if I..."
"Stop! I will love you even if you end up being a big green insect, I will always...always! Love you!!" She stopped me and I felt so happy inside of me.
"But mom... why did you react like that?"
"It was a shock. It wasn't something I was expecting hear. But also it was a big relief that you hadn't done anything wrong!" she said.
"Mom!! That makes me so happy to hear. You mean you don't think is wrong to be in love with a person of the same sex?"
"No. That's not wrong. Why would it be? The only thing I am afraid of... is the fact that he is so much older than you. You shouldn't let people know about that relationship ok love?" She asked me and I nodded as an answer.
"Now I have to go and wash my self. I have a school to go!" I said and got off her hug.
"But it's still so early in the morning you should get some sleep. You still have the time to do this!" She asked surprised.
"I can't sleep!" I applied and locked myself in the bathroom.

I stood in front of the mirror leaning on the sink. I looked like a mess. My hair were a mess. My eyes had black circles underneath them and in my cheeks you could still see the dry tears. I turned on the water and splashed it on my face and my hair. I still looked miserable. Just an other awful looking person (a.n. Please don't kill me for that. I know Jungkook is soooo handsome, but cmon this is a fanfic!) with acne and messy hair. Just an other crybaby, that except from all the other flaws he is... GAY! ARGGGGG! My psychology right know!
I beat my hands on the mirror and stared at my face. I tried to dig my nails on the mirror, of course knowing that this wasn't going to happen.
"Jungkook-ah!" I whispered to myself. "Don't you dare to cry again! You have to change! You have to try beat yourself. You have to be someone! Or if not someone famous, someone that somebody else needs desperately. You have to forget. Forget everything about the people that tried to get you down on your knees. It's hard, but you will do it!" I completed the orders I wanted to give myself and left the bathroom.
I got dressed, packed my bag in a hurry and for a second day in a row I left my house without eating breakfast, don't judge me I can't live without breakfast, and today I left without even saying goodbye to mom, something I was always doing.
I just ran the first three hundred meters just to get far enough from home and then I started walking like a normal i person in the almost empty streets. I took out my phone with my headphones so I could relax by listening some music. I automatically opened the G-Dragon playlist and the song that this playlist played was 'Fantastic Baby'. I really love that song, but I am not in the mood for something like this, so I changed it to 'Blue'. Everybody does that. Everybody listens to sad songs when their sad, it makes you cry and feel even a little bit relieved from it.
Then something caught my eye. It was a post that wrote with big letters AUDITIONING FOR SINGERS. I stranded there looking at it for a while. Then I folded and putted inside my pocket.

You never know!

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I know it was short and that it took me forever! Sorry!!!!

'Perfect man' playing on my headphones 🎧 and I just... my heart races every time I hear Jimin's (and Jungkook's of course!) voice on the refrain!😍🙈