Grey //CAKE//

Chapter 10

Luke

My eyes slowly blinked open and when i noticed where I was i was very confused.

How did I end up on the bed?

I felt his arm tighten around my waist, squeezing old scabs and I flinched and whimpered.

His head popped up, "hey?" His arm moved from around me, "you okay?" His voice was low and raspy and...
Lord.
Help me.

"Yeah sorry, I'm fine" I whispered, keeping my back towards him. "Do you know what time it is?"

"uh yeah", he turned around and then turned back, "6:37"

"A.m?"

"A.m." He turned back to me and to my surprise wrapped his arm around me again.
"Luckily," he whispered on my neck sending chills down my spine, "we still have time to sleep more, I'm very tired"

I felt speechless, my stomach full of butterflies.

What was happening?

I was laying in a bed..
With Calum hood ..
A boy that I think is very straight..
But me being very gay..

Isn't that like a no go for straight guys.

"Calum.." I mumbled.

He hmmed on my neck and I felt my heart quicken.

What was I doing ?!
Was I really going to tell him?!

"I kinda feel like you should know something.." I kept my voice quiet hoping he'd actually just fall back asleep

"Go ahead"

"Before you go thinking I'm like insane, and i don't know maybe you like cuddling so it means nothing to you , I promise I'm like not creepy or anything but.." his eyebrows furrowed, "I'm- uh I..." I stuttered over and over just not being able to find the right words.

"Luke look at me," I turned around and my eyes met with his and I suddenly felt like crying "what's going on?"

"I'm gay.." His eyes remained still as they looked at me, "and I just wanted to let you know in case you heard other things from other people and this uh.. this cuddling, I just didn't want to mess everything up because you're the only person that has really been nice to me" I added quickly

He moved his arms from me and nodded. "Uh we can talk about this later, yeah?." He smiled awkwardly and turned around and my eyebrows furrowed.

Did that just..
Did he..

My eyes stung. I could feel the tears well up.

I didn't want to be here anymore . So I sat up and went to my bags. I started packing my things but as I was zipping my bag he sat up.

"Where are you going?" He asked .

I opened my mouth to speak but I knew if I spoke it'd crack and he'd know I was crying .

"Luke.. " I just shook My head and walked out. Calum quickly caught up to me but I kept my fast pace "Luke please! Please don't leave" he pleaded

I just kept walking until I was outside when he grabbed my arm- "DONT touch me Calum!" I yelled, feeling hot tears fall from my eyes

He shook his head with a sad look,
"Luke.. I didn't mean to-"

"What?! You didn't mean to what?" I cried. "You didn't mean to blow me off after I shared one of the most important things about me?!" He tried to speak but I cut him off- "no! Calum , I thought you were different , I wanted you to be different but who cares right? We'll just talk about this later" and with that I walked away.

And he let me.
And I never felt like breaking down more than I did in that moment.