Grey //CAKE//

Chapter 11

Luke

I laid crying on my bed like an absolute idiot.
Why couldn't I just stop crying ?!

The question of why only made me feel mad which in turn made me cry more.

I wondered what Calum was thinking about.. Surely he was just going on with his day without a care.

I felt my phone buzz on my back making me turn around and check it. I wiped the tears from my eyes, clearing up my vision a bit. The screen lit up revealing about 10 messages from Calum, the latest one being 1 minute ago.

I groaned and threw my phone to the end of the bed.

I didn't want to see what he had to say, I had already heard him this morning.

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After giving myself about an hour to cool off I finally picked up my phone again to check what he had to say.

Cal ::-) -
Luke please..
I'm so sorry :(
I didn't mean to react to you in that way..
I'm so stupid 😔
I really care about you
Please text me
Okay Luke, since you wont answer, ill say what i need to.
This is everything I didn't say.
Luke, I would NeVer ever give up a friendship because of someone's sexuality. In fact it'd be especially wrong on my part because I went through a rough time discovering myself as well. In fact, i think im kind of Bisexual. I will never understand why i reacted in the way i did, but it was wrong, and i could never apologize enough.
I'm so so sorry that you felt ashamed after telling me , or whatever feeling you felt.
I'm not very good at writing things like this but just understand I'm so sorry .
I want to see you Luke..
Call me when you can :(

I laid back on my bed feeling every emotion that exists; sad, confused, mad, bad, flustered, the list goes on. Closing my eyes, I took one final deep breath before jumping up off my bed and grabbing shoes and running out of the house.

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I made my way on the familiar street rehearsing what I'd say to him over and over. And even after 20 minutes of walking I had nothing..

Time had ran out when I finally reached the door. , Letting my finger lightly press into the doorbell. I heard it ring and stood back Letting my eyes fall down to my shoes.

I heard the door slide open and suddenly I felt my stomach in my throat.

I couldn't move and neither could my lips.
"Luke?" I heard him whisper, "Are you okay?" and that was all it took. All it took to make me sink. Every feeling of sadness returned from this morning making me look up at him with stinging eyes.

"I don't understand, Calum" I spoke, hearing my voice crack, "I don't know understand how or why I'm here, I- I don't understand what happened this morning, I don't even understand why I felt the need to tell you what I did. I really don't understand why everybody here hates me, but more importantly I don't understand why you don't." I whispered the last part letting the first tear drop.
His expression was different.

He tried to step forward but on instinct I stepped back.

"Luke, I know you know about the rumors in school, how everyone talks about you." He started and I felt my cheeks burn with embarrassment, starting to hear all the things spread about me in my head.
"I've heard them all Luke, but guess what? I'm still here, aren't I? Never once did I believe a single thing they said. I wanted to know you, I wanted the real story. Because I knew, after everything I was told, there was absolutely no way you were anything that they said."

I quickly wiped the tears from my eyes with my sleeves and stayed quiet.
I had nothing to say.

He stepped forward again, but this time I let him. He brought his hand to my cheek and his other lifted my chin.

I stared into his eyes waiting for him to say something but everything was silent.

He let his hands fall down to my sides making me secretly miss the warmth.

Out of no where he pulled me in and wrapped his arms tightly around my body.

And now suddenly Everything thing in the world seemed small. All my sadness had vanished. In his arms I felt.. I felt right. I felt calm. I felt okay.

An unfamiliar feeling.
One I hadn't felt in so long.
But I knew..
I didn't want it to end.