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Chapter 34:

**Nelly's p.o.v.**

" Nelly ! Honey, come here." Amy said with her arms wide open. I gladly took the offer of a hug and hugged her back.

" i want you to stand up here with me. You were just as part of this family as i am. " she says and i smile.

" im gonna go talk to him real quick before people start coming." I say and she nods.

I walk up to the casket and i can already feel a big lump in my throat.

" hey buddy. I miss you. Im sorry i haven't been eating or getting out of bed or anything. If you were still here, you'd be yelling at me and making me eat. Im just really sorry. Ill start again..." I pause for a moment. " i promise ill take care of your mother, but i think shes the one that needs to take care of me. " i laugh. " i love you so much Ryan, so much. And don't you forget that. Ill never forget you Ryan. Never in a billion years. Ill talk to you later. See you soon buddy." I say and let go of his hand.

I wipe the tears from my eyes and kiss his forehead. I walk over to Amy and stood next to her.

" just in time. Everyone's coming in." She laughs and i lightly smile.

" im so sorry for your loss." A women came up to us and more and more people just kept coming, saying the same thing.

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" I'll see you tomorrow early in the morning. Okay ? Just meet here. Good night sweetheart." Amy said hugging me good bye.

" okay. Good night Amy. I love you." I say hugging her back.

" i love you too dear. Now go on. They are waiting for you." She said jokingly. I laugh and we both walk out of the room and walk to our cars.

We head home and all i want to do is sleep. I get out of the car and walked straight to my room. I changed into sweatpants and a camisole.

I brushed teeth and put my hair in a messy bun. I walked out of the bathroom and saw Luke laying in bed already asleep. I laid in bed and cuddled into him. I felt my eye lids get heavy and soon everything went black.

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" good morning sweets. Ready for this ? Just stay up with me again ok?" Amy says when i first walk into the funeral home.

" good morningg. And okay. " i say and we both stand and wait for people to come.

" are you ready to sing in like an hour ?" Amy asks as people start walking in.

" yeah. I made a special song for you. " i say and she smiles.

" i cant wait to hear it now. Cant this hour go by faster ?" She jokes and i laugh along.

Mum walks up to us and smiles. " how are you guys holding up?"

" ehh." We both say and then laugh afterwards.

Mum smiles and rubs my arm. " we will be right here if you need anything." She said and we nodded. She walked back to dad and the rest.

Its too much work saying everyone's names.

God im lazy.

" hello. You must be Nelly. Ryan always used to tell me about you. He told me how you didn't care if he was bald, you still played with him. I think that is adorable. Oh i forgot to say. Im Nicholas's mom, Ryan's little friend." A lady said walking up to me.

" yeah. I mean, i had my cousin deal with cancer. I had to deal with her being bald, but even if anyone else was bald. I wouldn't think anything different. Everyone is beautiful no matter what. I used to tell him everyday that he was beautiful and he would argue with me every morning. " i say and she laughs.

" well that is the best thing to do, and the best thing to think. He would be so proud of you. You know that right ? He always looked up to you as a role model. Even though he was a little boy and your a girl." She said and i smiled.

" so iv been told." I say and she laughs.

" hello. If everyone could please have a seat. " the minister said in front of Ryan.

Me and Amy sat on the couch in front of him. I grabbed her hand and gave it a tight squeeze.

" we will now have Miss Nelly Tomlinson, sing a song for us. " he said and i nodded.

I let go of Amy's hand and walked up to the stand.

" i wrote this song about 2 weeks ago for Amy. I wrote it in her perspective. I know how much Ryan meant to her. He was her angel, her light in the darkness. Her everything. But now that he's gone, she feels empty. But with this song, you can feel happiness. So, this song is for you Amy. " i say and she smiles.

I held my guitar in my hand and started strumming.

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