Fix You

50

Mika

I opened the door of my unit and dropped my stuff at the door.

Sobrang pagod na pagod ako kahit wala naman ako masyadong ginawa maghapon. I think school drained me, then I went to the hospital pa with Kiefer for his appointment with his new doctor.

Well sabi nung doctor wala naman daw kaming dapat ipag-alala. Though we have to monitor his sugar more closely and regularly.

So yeah, I guess I'm not physically tired. It's more like mentally.

After his check-up at the hospital, Kiefer and I went to Greenbelt 3 to buy some food and we went back to his place and his attention pretty much remained on Kierra. He didn't ignore me naman or anything, but it's like he is soaking her in, as if akala nya he wouldn't be able to be with her for much longer.

I hate that he thinks that way.

In my honest opinion, I don't think a judge would really choose to send Kierra with her parents over Kiefer. That's just absurd.

Though I thought if we fight hard enough, Kierra could stay away from his parents.

I didn't tell Kiefer, and maybe dapat sinabi ko sa kanya, but I called Mr. Tan and asked him about his options, and even though he knows I am Kiefer's girlfriend, he didn't want to discuss specifics with me because of confidentiality.

But that got me thinking, what if hindi lang ako girlfriend. What if we get married?

My thought process is that if kasal kami ni Kiefer, I could share the custody with Kierra.

If something happens with Kiefer, Kierra would still have me. I mean given na naman na Kierra will always have me of course, but that is not seen the eyes of the court.

But if Kierra has at least one stable guardian, will that be enough to let the judge keep her with Kiefer since he's not alone?

Parang pwede diba? It sounds a little bit logical right?

Well apparently not.

I asked Mr. Tan about it and he said me being married to Kiefer wouldn't matter.

I'm only 19, yung income ko galing pa din sa parents ko, and even if I wanted to have joint custody of Kierra with Kiefer, it will take months to file and make official.

There goes that idea.

I mean ayoko naman makasal ng maaga but God knows I'd do it in a heartbeat if it is for sure the only way for Kiefer to keep Kierra. I just hate seeing him so lost and helpless and feeling like the world is against him.

The list of things Kiefer had to deal with is unbelievable, yet he still managed to put a smile on and raise a beautiful kid.

I am two steps away from the couch when my phone started ringing. Gusto ko ng mahiga eh.

I look at the caller ID and it's Carol. Shit. I forgot.

Nag-yayaya kasi sila to go out on Thursday night. One of our classmates and friends sa major subject has a gig at some bar, dito lang din naman sa Taft. And sabi ko sa kanya I'll just call her to let her know if sasama ba ko or what.

I just didn't answer the phone call muna and I texted Kiefer when she hung up. I will call her right back naman, I just need to check with Kiefer.