The Fix

Chapter 26

I loved this man more than life itself. And, here I was being selfish and stupid. How, could I treat him this way? After, all of the lies, sex, drugs and pain, he deserved a woman. Not, some weak child pretending to be a woman, a real woman that was strong enough to handle life and battle her demon's. I looked deep into his light brown eyes and became overjoyed, he was my light. And, at that moment I knew, just as badly as I needed him, he needed me as well. "Jason, I want to get better. Baby I have to get better, and if that means going to a hospital for a while... I'll do it" Jason hugged me so tight I thought I'd burst. I felt his tears on my shoulder, I didn't say anything, I just hugged him back and rocked him gently. "Elise, that's all I want for you. That's all I've ever wanted for you.. You deserve so much more than you allow yourself to have baby. You are my rib, I'd die without you baby, every time you hurt yourself or your hurting I feel useless" I couldn't help the tears from falling, I wiped my mans eyes and kissed him. I promised, I'd stay on my meds and in the hospital, if he'd come visit me every weekend. We kissed deeply, it didn't feel the same. It felt better, Jason lit a fire inside of my soul, a burning desire to want more out of life. I kissed, and rubbed him. I wanted to feel him, inside of me, I knew he'd give it to me. But, I had to control myself. I rubbed my face into his neck, and whispered sweet nothings in his ear. He, cleaned my wrist and wrapped them, I knew it was time to go, "Baby..... Can we... I mean before I go? I need to feel you." I got on my knees' and massaged his member, I felt the thickness, the length and width. I slowly unzipped his pants, reaching inside and pulling out his stiffness. I licked the tip, making small figure 8's along the shaft, teasing him, making him moan in agony. Finally I took him all the way in my mouth, the shock and pleasure ran through his body, I was in full control

I was in complete control & I knew it cause he was becoming weaker by the second I sucked my man dry til he nearly lost his balance I finally let go making a popping sound, Jason's breathing was heavy I could tell he was tryna recover from what just happened but I wanted more I wanted him inside of me one last time before I went away to the hospital just one time was all I needed. "Baby I Just Wanna Feel You Inside Me One Time Before I Leave." I gave him the most saddest puppy dog eyes ever hoping he'd give in & give me what I wanted. Jason sighed in defeat & picked me up he carried me to the bed & gently laid me down Jason positioned himself between my legs & teased my entrance with the tip of his member I moaned as he slowly slid in giving me inch by inch this is what I needed what I had been wanting I gasped in pleasure as Jason slid deeper thrusting in & out of me with such ease. I scratched at his back & moaned his name we went at it for what felt like hours til I finally exploded everywhere, Jason cleaned us both up then he got dressed I sighed cause I knew that it was time to go but I was doing this for us I got up & I began to get dressed I finally finished then I headed to the living room I kept repeating "This is for us for a better future." I grabbed my things then I hugged my man well here we go this is for the better.