The Fix

Chapter 20

I didn't know how to feel, my breathing became jagged, I was so confused. " Elise did you hear what the doctor said?" I couldn't respond due to the fact that I thought I was dreaming. "There has to be some type of mistake. I can't be pregnant". I didn't know how to feel, I was mad, happy, sad, and scared.
What if I have this baby and I fail him or her as a parent? What if I leave my child like my mom use to leave us? What if Jason leaves me like my daddy left us? What if my baby is just like me? I couldn't cry, I couldn't scream, I just kept repeating myself "there was a mistake. That's not my test." I think I made Jason feel bad but I didn't care at that moment. My mom grabbed my hands " Elise calm down. Just get up and let's go, we can talk about it later" but why did I have to wait? Why?? I just wanted to know how this was possible... My chest started to tighten, my breathing was uneven. But then Jason looked at me and smiled " baby it's okay I'm scared too" my heart melted. How the fuck could I be selfish? I had a man that treated me like a queen. I need to appreciate him and let him know that I had his back like he had mine "I love you Jason" he helped me up and walked me into the bathroom, to help m
e get dressed. I couldn't help myself, I dropped to my knees and unzipped his pants. I put pulled it out and French kissed the tip. I sucked his dick until I heard a tap on the door. I looked up at Jason and giggled "my bad daddy "

After I got dressed we grabbed my things & headed home I was still trying to wrap my mind around the fact that I'm going to be a mother there's a lil life growing inside of me, I couldn't believe it Jason & I would soon be parents are we ready for this? We pulled up at my mother's house & I was still in shock who would've thought me of all the people gonna have a baby I went inside the house not hearing anyone just my own thoughts. Dennis spoke to me. "Hey Lil Sis How Are You Feeling?" I kept walking & didn't respond Dennis looked confused. "What Did I Do?" My mama & Jason walk in & see Dennis's confused look my mama walks over to Dennis & says. "We'll Explain Later." Dennis sighs. "Okay Fine." Meanwhile I'm upstairs pacing back & forth if I walk any faster I'm gonna burn a hole in the carpet, Jason comes upstairs. "Babe Relax I Know That You're Scared I'm Scared Too But We'll Get Through This Together." I looked up at him & he smiled at me then kissed my forehead. "Promise You Won't Leave Like My Father Left Us?" Jason looked at me & said. "I Promise I'm Here Forever Nothing Can Keep Me Away." When he said that I finally felt at peace with the thought of having a baby just thinking bout the words "My Own Lil Family" makes me smile.