The Fix

Chapter 4

The numbing sensation started to take over my body. I saw Jason, and I saw his lips moving but I couldn't hear the words I just kept crying for the dumbest reason. There really wasn't any reason for me to be crying or feeling any type of sadness. This should be the happiest time of my life right now, Jason stepped into the shower with me fully clothed and held me I buried my face into his chest this is what I needed but I knew in some way shape or form I was going to fuck it up. I allowed myself to feel, whatever this wave of emotion was, I kissed Jason and he kissed me back, I looked into his eyes " I want to try this, I just don't want to hurt you Jason." " Elise hurt and pain are apart of love, getting through it is the hard part". I smiled a genuine smile it felt so damn good. I took my clothes off and threw them on the floor, like a mirror Jason did the same. I got on my knees and took him in my mouth. I sucked him like I was trying to prove something, after he came in my mouth I washed him from head to toe. We showered and moved to the bedroom he went down and kissed my thighs and licked my yoni. He, took his time and enjoyed my flavor. This time we didn't fuck, we made love. It was calculated and passionate, the movement, the rhythm. I was experiencing bliss

This just felt so right to me & I was glad that I was giving it a try Jason & I made love for hours & I didn't want it to end he made me feel so special I have never felt this way before it was something so new to me, I had gotten use to men just fucking me & then I leave but Jason was catering to my every want & desire & I loved it 3 hours later after we finished Jason held me as we laid there talking & you know what? I didn't feel an urge to leave I looked at Jason. "I Feel Really Comfortable Now I Can Honestly Say That I Don't Have An Urge To Leave." Jason looks at me & smiles. "That's Good I'm Glad I Want You To Be Comfortable Here Elise." We continued to talk until we drifted off to sleep I begin to have a nightmare of all the people who said they wouldn't help me & the one's who would get frustrated with me & cuss & scream then just leave me alone to suffer, I wake up & begin having a panic attack I start crying & thinking maybe this won't work maybe I'm getting ahead of myself am I rushing into this to fast? Give me a sign is this the right thing for me or will it fail?