LYFE

Begining or End

Hey guys I'm backkkk lolol I know you miss me. It's been a while sigh let me tell you the ish I've been dealing with since that night in the hospital......

Kdavi pov.
As y'all know I've confirmed my love for Jason and it's been so great with him he loves me with all my flaws and all, he's my halo. But lately me and Jason haven't been the couple we should be, after we left the hospital that night and I told him everything that happened he hasn't been himself. Oh btw that safe what Jamal and scotti was looking for was actually true me and Jason found it after the drama what happened And I instantly put it in a bank account that only me know about it. But none the less back to me and Jason, it was like a month later Jason was moping around daily and crying and feeling like he put me thru this I went out my way to treat my man to a nice vacation to Barbados. He putted a fake smile for me and that made me felt like what's the sense to help him, trust me I love Jason he's been there for me he's my a1 from day1. I just don't know how to deal with it I love Jason but what happened in the past happened we are here living you would think he would be the king he is but he isn't. Oh and let me give you some tea hunni........ Cj is still around but he's know my heart is with Jason he doesn't disrespect me nor my relationship, he low key do say some dirty stuff that keeps me going making me feel like I'm the only boy in the world. Tbh cj is starting to make me fall more for him not because of Jason lack of loving me or handling his business but he makes sure to comfort and give me the attention I deserve.

Jason pov
.......Sigh hey guys I know it's been a while, you missed your dude jay lolol....but hey I'm here living and enjoying life but I'm not myself, tbh ever since my baby avi told me what went down I felt some how responsible. Tiffany shoots herself and shoots my bestfriend by mistake she was aiming for my heartstring my love my baby, and where was I unconscious oblivious to the danger. I'm mad at myself because if cj didn't come in a I wouldn't be here today with me I would of fought for nothing just to lose my baby and I would have to live with myself and that makes me upset. I should give my baby the love he deserves because we been thru a lot and that's what strengthen our love, but I have been moping around like a zombie don't want to touch my baby nor look at him every night we sleep in the same bed but we don't cuddle nor touch each other. Me avi haven't had sex in almost 4months, and I feel he's drifting away from me and even though I don't want to lose him but I'm scared to have him.  I notice he's been goin out with my bestfriend Cj but I'm not upset because if it wasn't for cj my baby wouldn't be alive, but I'm low key scared because cj did had some strong feelings for him back in the day so. But nothing I can do just sit back and watch how this story unfolds.

Cj pov.
Hey guys what's up its been a minute yo......turn up....well I'm good been chilling living my life ya know. Ever since the situation happen at the hospital it's been smooth my stomach still hurts now and then but I'll live lolol what doesn't kill me makes me stronger right?... Well me and Jason friendship has been off and on because he's in this slum feeling like he scared to love again or he scared to lose kdavi. Well I mean who could blame him his ex did try to kill his boyfriend lolol....yeah right nigga that's the story I fed to kdavi knowing he would tell Jason lol.......Tiffany was actually going to kill herself because she saw kdavi and Jason laying down together. But me and kdavi we be hanging a lot helping him how to deal with Jason emotions but it's like he's not breaking out of it but I'm low key scared though I might be trying to get kdavi behind his back but I still want my friend alive, yeah I know I'm fucked up right trying to steal my best friend  boyfriend  but still want him to be okay. But soon or later kdavi won't be able to continue this he loves Jason but it's killing him inside every time he's with me he's crying on my chest or shoulder, I hate seeing my firecracker crying but I love seeing him vulnerable. He's my Heartbeat that makes me click, he makes me feel so good when we hug and cuddle And no we haven't had sex yet, He be trying me though lolol one day we was cuddling  till dawn and he rolled over and land right on my lips and tbh it felt like heaven he started rubbing my muscle chest and I grabbed that phat ass of his and he moan so sweet in my ear like he needed a mans touch like gawddamn. I knew he felt uncomfortable because he ran in the bathroom and shut the door I just got up and went to cook breakfast and wait for him so I could drop him off home to Jason.