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It was Sunday Jayla had the time of her life with me and Cj. We even did a play date with Dez kids. But I didn't tell Cj what happen, just told him that we came to a conclusion and we solved our issues. Lately I haven't been in my right mind. I've played it off that I was fine so I can seem I'm really here in body and mind with Cj. But my mind has been on Jason ever since that night after our little outing. It's not so much in a bad state but I'm thinking of why would Jason cry like that. He hated crying in front me because he felt like the man he is shouldn't cry. Something isn't adding up. Does Jason really miss and still love me? Or is it that I'm still not over Jason? Sigh I don't know which one it is but I can't let another moment like that happen. Cj was watching a movie in our room with Jayla and she fell sleep on Cj. It was the most adorable picture I've seen. I took a pic on my phone and uploaded it to my ig. With the hashtag my little queen and my hubby. Cj noticed and said that he don't like me taking off guard pictures of him. I laughed and he pinned up his face. I started to kiss on his cheek and neck and all I could do was smile. He was explaining I need to stop but when I hit that spot on his upper neck he was like baby oooooo don't stop baby. I pulled away and laugh in the pillow. I told him sure whatever it was he didn't want me to stop. Cj got mad because I teased him, "babe you better stop teasing me. When I teased you I want you beg me because I still won't give you none." I laughed because he never once teased me because when he gives the dick, hunni 'Cj Gives The Dick'. So I don't have to worry. But if he was to ever try to tease me, he might not want me to tease me ever again. I'm beast in these sheets, I don't play that. So it was almost time to bring Jayla back to her daddy and I been dreading this. I would ask Cj to carry her but if I did then it would show that Jason got the best of me. And I ain't having that so I put on my joggers my Jordan's and a V-neck shirt and made breakfast. I made Jayla favorite oatmeal and bananas. I told Cj that to get her dress so she can catch her Grammy to go to church for the 11oclock service. She came out and hugged me and said good morning and sat at the table while I finish make breakfast. She kinda look upset so I walked over to her with her breakfast and I asked what's the matter cupcake?.

Jayla- nothing avi. Thank you for breakfast. (Trying to force a smile)
Me- Jayla I always told you to tell me what's going even when you feel I wouldn't understand. Tell me so you can make me understand okay baby. Nothing you say will hurt me.
Jayla- sigh, promise you won't get mad.
Me-I promise.
Jayla- well I just want you to come back home with me and daddy. Daddy acts like he don't miss you but he misses you a lot. When I go to bed he's in the front room sitting on the couch looking at our pictures of us. It makes me sad that daddy misses you but you don't act like you miss daddy. And I feel like I'm the cause of it all.
Me- omg no Jayla your not the cause of it. Don't ever let me hear you say that again okay. Don think like that ever again.

As I'm pouring my heart out to Jayla about how I feel Cj didn't step in he just listened to what I had to say.

Me-Jayla I know I walk around here like I don't miss daddy. But I do I really do. Nothing would make me happy more to snuggle up with you and daddy and watch our favorite movies like we use to. It's just me and daddy are in a time out. And we need some time to think about what we done. I will forever and always love your daddy.(tears just rolling down my face) you remember when we came home from the store and you said you wasn't feeling good and daddy thought you had a fever but you actually was having a asthma attack. Your daddy didn't know what to do so I calm him down and got you up and gave you my old inhaler and after two pumps you was feeling better. You said you was scared that it might happen again so you came in our bed and we cuddle all night because you felt safe. That was my favorite moment with your daddy and you.

Jayla- lol I remember daddy up and down like a chicken without a head.
Me- lol yes he was. Anyway cupcake eat your breakfast and get ready it's almost time for you to go by Grammy. I'll put your things in the car okay.
Jayla- okay avi I love you.
Me-a www baby I love you more.