LYFE

Heaven Waits

As the church bell rings and the sound of the rain and people crying would make you depressed. The service was short yet emotional. Jason was crying more than me. Mama jones had to leave because she fainted due to her pressure. Sigh I didn't had anyone supporting me. My sister wish she could of been here for me but she had to stay in Iraq. For another month, Lynette was here but we found a surprise that she was pregnant. So this funeral wasn't healthy for her nor the baby. Everyone was at the graveyard saying they goodbyes and dropping the roses in the grave. It came to the point where it was my moment. Nobody knew what I was doing so I decided to be video taped. The rain wasn't stopping but I felt at peace because my father always said when you are putting someone in the grave and it rains, That means God is pleased and is happy with a Angel coming home, so he washes the earth of his pain and makes new things grow. I did a mix of don't cry for me by Whitney Houston and piece from I'll cover you from the movie Rent. Even though I got a little choked but I sang my heart out and everyone pushed me to keep going. After everything everyone left and headed by our house for the repast. I stayed at the graveyard sitting under the tent holding my bouquet of flowers I had for Cj. I sat there and I felt at some kind of peace, it almost felt like Cj was sitting next to me talking to me telling me it's going to be okay and I should live my life. I had to giggle because Cj knew he had a part of me that no one never knew about. Not even Jason ever seen that side. I started singing Cj favorite song, 'Dreams to Dream' by Sarah Lasko. This always made him cry every time he heard it. Lol he would turn his head away and say he ain't no cry baby. That always made me love him more. He was my baby, I don't know if remembering that moment made me fuzzy but tears were dropping down my face like a open water pump. I just kept singing until the very end, I got up and touched Cj casket and told him I love him and to save a spot for me. I placed the flowers and gave My last look and exhaled. I turned around to see someone I wasn't expecting to see for a very long time. There he stood standing with his black shirt and black pants with white shoes with a white hat. Looking like the devil, Chaz uncle. I walked to him and notice that he wasn't alone, Chaz stood there in all black with shades on. I gave him one look but decided the drama with him wasn't going to mess up my mood. Chaz uncle asked if he can chat with me for a minute. I told him he has 5 minutes. He said that's enough for him, we walked to his car and Chaz followed but his uncle said to wait outside. We got in the car and before I can ask anything his uncle started the conversation with an eye opener.

Yuan- avi if I may, I'm sorry to hear about your loss. But there's a brighter future.
Me- yeah thank you I appreciate it, but that doesn't say why you and Chaz are here. This was a private funeral.
Yuan- well I have friends who have friends. But I'm here to give you a heads up about two situations.
Me- heads up about what.? Or I should say who?.
Yuan- well first my godson, he's helping his best friend to gather up your ex squad so they can finish what your ex didn't. And I can't say who his best friend is. But the second person is Chaz.
Me- well I'm not worrying about it, but what I have to worry bout Chaz.?
Yuan- well avi if you didn't know his story, you wouldn't know he has played in the rainbow light a time ago. But he told me about the situation what took place after y'all left me. It surprised me to find out he humble himself with you. This why I want you to be careful, because Chaz is very fragile yet strong enough to snap.
Me- well he deserved what he got. I only cared about his safety and health and I got treated like a tramp bitch. His ass had me fucked up.
Yuan- lol see I love your spirit, but just watch out he might seem tough but he's really a softy especially for dudes of your caliber. I notice his whole demeanor changed before my eyes. Something about you makes him be the nephew I once knew.
Me- well it's whatever. I'm not trying to go back down that road. If you don't mind your 5minutes is up. I really have to go but thank you for the information. And the little history lesson on Chaz.
Yuan- no thank you. I'll send my regards and a token on my behalf.
Me- that won't be necessary but thank you enjoy your day Yuan.
Yuan- you do the same Avi.