February 5th, 2015
"I'm relieved once again; Ophelia had no issues telling me that she was glad she'd been sterilized. HYDRA had done this to control her, to ensure that she never made the mistake her own parents had. The amount of procedures done to her, she had no idea what else had been done to her body. Often she'd wake in her cell, bruised and with a new bandage over her arm where a needle had gone. So the sterilization process had likely occurred one of those times she was under, and woke with no recollection of what had happened, only the sense that she knew.
She says it is easier; she knows that she can never make a mistake like her parents did. The idea of not only creating life, but making that life worth living for another person, scares her. To be that responsible for another life, she never wants that. I can't begin to explain how relieved I am, not that we will never run into this problem, but that she is okay with what has been done to her. I look at her scars not with disgust, but with a fear that I was really the root problem, the cause of some of those scars. I was worried that she might think she was worth less because of her sterilization, but we've discussed it now and she knows that is far from how I feel. We both agree it is easier, and while our past doesn't have a lot of light within it, we can see beyond the darkness that was done.
She also said she was glad because this world, the world she and I know better than anyone else, is not a world she deems fit for bringing in another life. Those who have not been exposed to what we have, they don't understand it. I wish she didn't know what this world was, how cruel it could be. But perhaps it is that sense of naivety that get people hurt; such as forgetting the world we live in is no sanctuary. We can pretend that we are safe all day, but I know we're not."
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