March 2nd, 2015
"This is the start of the second journal; it amazes me that I made it through an entire journal of good memories. Or mostly good; even the ones about our nightmares, the ones about our struggles, they are still... good. They are us, they are our memories; having someone beside me every night to share my struggles with, there was many times in my life where I never thought that possible. There were times where I didn't know that O existed.
HYDRA almost succeeded in erasing her, but she persevered. Through some stubborn way only Ophelia could manage, she brought us back together. Eight months together, eight months since Washington. There is something I've never told O; in the years that I did not know who she was, in the years I was the Winter Soldier, there was often something in the back of my mind that told me to leave. Anytime I was out on a mission, it always felt wrong going to the pick up point; like something was telling me to hop a train and disappear. And yet there was always something bringing me back; I might think it was the words, those damn trigger words, and the control HYDRA had over me.
But sometimes I think it might have been O. We didn't work together very often, and I couldn't have told you her name or why I recognized her. Thinking back, very often we were so close together, and had no idea who the other was. Maybe she knew, and if she did... The horrible feeling that must have given her, I only wish I could erase all that from her mind. I wish she never had to see me the way HYRA made me, the things they made me do."
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Reminisce: Dear O,
Fanfiction[Cover created by AFleetingDream_91] In which Steve Rogers is given Bucky's journals after his friend goes back into cryo. A letter from Bucky to Ophelia and journal entries give Steve an insight of the two years they had together. Book One is "Leav...
