Spike #Wattys2016

forgiveness is devine, apparently

I wake up from a coma from hell and i instantly know i am way late for school. Getting up to use the restroom i notice i'm not alone,... he's here. Sitting on the bench at my window, he looked like he hadn't slept at all.  "I'll be right back." I use the restroom and brush my teeth, i put my hair up because i didn't want it ripped out from my brush.  I take a couple deep breaths and walk out into the room and decided we needed to talk this through, i didn't want to be childish, especially about Spike.   He was now sitting on the edge of my bed twirling a business card around his fingers.  I walk over to my bed and sit beside him. "What is that?"  He handed me the card and it took me a minute to recognize the name on the card. "Spike, why does this card have your uncle Jack's name on it?" He gave me a sad smile and i prayed he told me the truth because i couldn't take another lie from him. 

"Well that's because it's my uncles card.  I went to see him yesterday and i didn't want you to worry or get u into trouble so that's why i didn't tell you and i'm so sorry that i lied to you Avery, i just wanted to protect you."  

I understand why he didn't want me skipping school but me being worried is an all time thing.  "I'm always going to worry because i love you.  If you would have told me the truth i would have stayed at school and still let you go, we have to trust each other." He looked stunned.  "Spike, neither one of us has a lot of experience with relationships, but it comes natural with you.  When i think of doing something and it involves you i always think that if the tables were turned how would it make you feel, i'm not perfect and i'm going to make mistakes...we both are but next time, just think about that."  He laughs and shakes his head while he holds out his hand to take the card back.

 "Baby, you are too old for your age.  I love you Avery, am i out of the dog house now or am i still in trouble?"  I gave the illusion to think on this when he was already forgiven, i understood where he was coming from, i really did.  As long as he stopped with the lies we were good... he looked freaked out, should i let him sweat it out?  Nah, i'm not that mean.

 "As long as you promise not to lie to me were good."  He smiled and leaned over to kiss my lips and the side of my neck inhaling my sent into his lungs.

 "No more lies baby, i promise. Now come kiss your man, he's been lonely."

We spent the rest of the day in my room on my bed spending time together, just kissing and snuggling together it was a peaceful day. "So what did you and your uncle Jack talk about?" He rolled over to grab a sip of water, his lips were red and swollen from us kissing all day.  His hair was all over the place giving him a rugged bed head look and it was seriously sexy on him.  He took his tongue and traced his bottom lip with it and when i though it couldn't get worse, it did.  He pulled his bottom lip in between his teeth and sucked on it. I felt a hot rush go through my body and my pulse had quickened, but i was still quicker than that.  "Spike?" He laughed and pulled me to rest on his chest.

 "I went to ask him about the night my parents died, if he had any information about it and why he still wasn't looking for their killer."  Okay something wasn't right here, what was he getting at? 

 "What did he say?"  He took a deep breath and ran a hand down his face.  The fact that he looked disturbed by this started to scare me.

  "Well.. that's the thing he just brushed everything off and then he all of a sudden had to leave because he had to be somewhere for dinner, then he told me not to come back, it really pissed me off." 

I was trying to think of a plan here and was coming up blank.  "Spike i think we need to go back to the beginning, before your parents were killed."  Since i was getting thirsty i asked him if he wanted to go downstairs with me and get started on dinner because my mom would be home soon .

I knew that home cooked food for Spike was more than a rare thing, so i let him choose on dinner.  " Baked ziti.  My parents and i had this once a week and it was one of my favorites, i miss eating it, i miss eating it with them."  He was sad and i knew just the thing to make him feel better.

  "Spike, why don't you cook tonight and i just help instead.  Everything you miss about it,  all of those memories, why don't you bring it back to life?  Make it a reality again, i'm sure that your parents would love that."  This seemed to make him feel better because he was getting started faster than i could blink. 

"Everything is in the sauce, i remember our cook telling me that.  You have to let it simmer for a while and don't touch it too much."  This was so much fun.  We were laughing and cutting up and adding more memories to the ones that he had before.  I think bringing these back to life was really helping because he didn't seem so sad anymore. I really needed to encourage him speaking about his parents.  I think it's healthy for him to express himself to someone he can trust instead of keeping it bottled inside... wow, just like i'm doing with my dad.  I guess i'm calling the kettle black here.  Well.. here goes nothing.

  "I'm still pissed at my dad for cheating on my mom.  What he doesn't realize is that he kind of cheated on me too, because he cheated me out of my family.  He hurt my mom so much, she really loved him.  Years after being married, she still loved him more than anything and he left us, for his stupid secretary. My mom thinks that she hides it but i could always see right through her, but now that i have you... the pain isn't as bad as it was when i first got here. Thank you Spike, you have given my mom and i a new reason to be happy, i love you."