Spike #Wattys2016

trust should always go far

Making my way back to my room, i try not to freak out.  Everything was going to be okay, i mean it might not even have anything to do with me for all i know.  I probably just freaked out over nothing.  With the biggest breath i ever took in my life, i grab the handle to my door and twist it open.  I walked in the door and his head lifted up and he had a frown across his face while i struggle to keep everything on mine relaxed.  "Where have you been lady, iv'e been going out of my mind! "

 Shit, i had no clue what to say so i guess i was just gonna go for the truth.  "I could say the same because when i walked out of here you didn't look too good either."  Busted.  He reached his hand out for me to grab and i take it instantly.  He pulls me over to him and we sit on the bed.  

I was freaking out to say the least, i had no clue what was about to come out of his mouth.  "Avery, i.."  Oh my god i really couldn't take this . 

"Just go ahead and spit it out Spike, it was awful, i was awful, i'm sorry alright."  A true look of horror passed over his face as he realized why i had left, he jumps off the bed and looms over me while i brace myself for the shouting that's sure to come, like right freaking now.

 "Are you serious?  That's why you left the room?  Because you thought i... "  He couldn't even finish his sentence and hey, looky here, the tears are about to make a second grand appearance.  I was pathetic, i think.  He looks up and notices i'm crying and i don't know how because all i could do was look at the floor, this sucked ass. "Baby no, it wasn't that.  The opposite really, i was having problems controlling myself and i felt like a bastard because of it.  Not you, never you.  Avery, look at me.  Perfect, to me you are too perfect. These lips are so soft, and this skin is so warm and i can't believe that i could even speak to you, let alone touch you this way. Please, next time you feel this way tell me, not your mother, okay."  Well isn't he just freaking awesome. I busted out in tears as sobs tore through my chest.  I felt myself being picked up and laid against something solid and warm.  I just couldn't stop though, just the thought of him not wanting me was crushing. "I'm sorry baby. I feel like such a bastard, i'm so sorry, forgive me, hell.. hate me just don't cry baby, please."  

That was the last thing i heard because i was apparently waking up from a crying induced sleep.  I sit up with a start and see him asleep beside me on my bed.   Careful not to wake him i pull the blanket back up to me and i gently curl into him and let out a soft sigh.  I can't believe that he was so sweet about the whole thing, i really didn't deserve him.  I lay my hand on his stomach and feel the hard muscles that i believe was my new favorite part of his beautiful body. I pull myself even closer to his body and drift back into a peaceful sleep, praying he was here when i woke. 

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I had the most delicious smell going into my nose when i woke.  Strong arms tightened around me while one arm slid down to softly grab one of my butt cheeks.  My heart started to beat through my chest as i realized that not only was he grabbing my ass, but this was the first time i had ever woken up with someone before, let alone with a boy and my actual boyfriend at that. I was careful to control my breathing and also making sure that i didn't move to wake him. I needed a minute alone to process everything that had happened and everything that was still happening at this exact moment.  I really needed to think about how close we were getting, intimately wise.  I know i wanted to give him my virginity, i just wanted to make sure about the time because this was usually a lot of pressure on a girl, but then i realized that i'm really not scared.. just really nervous because i don't know what i'm doing and i don't know what to expect.

"Good morning, my love."  I turn my head and there he was in all his glory, i smile and lean in to kiss him, but being careful of the fact that i probably have morning breath. 

"Morning sexy, how did you sleep?"  Laughing he pecked my lips again and let me go so he could stretch.

  "Like a king, you?"  How fitting.

 "Like a queen sleeping beside her king, safe, warm, happy, and totally relaxed." The smile he gave me was brighter than the sun, good lord he was so handsome.

 "That's great lady, i guess that means a job well done eh."

  "Yep, got that right.  You want breakfast because i'm about to freaking starve?"  He slid over to straddle me and grabs the back of my head and runs his nose over my face and neck, giving me small pecks here and there. Only to drive me insane i swear.

 "Well we can't have that, can we."  All of a sudden he shoots off the bed while his eyes go wide. "Your mom! Shit, she's gonna be pissed."  I tried the look of horror on my face but i couldn't help it, i busted out laughing. 

"She knows that your here Spike,  she trusts me and she doesn't care, if she did she would've killed you after i told her about our action last night." He paled.

 "You didn't? "  I shook my head yes while i continued to laugh my butt off at his facial expression.  "Yep, sure did. I didn't go into much detail but my mother and i have a very good relationship, i never did things like this with someone before so she knows that you are very special to me and she trusts my judgment in people, that's why she trust you, because she trust me. It's okay Spike she knows what we were doing and besides, she's not stupid.  She knows that i love you." Yeah folks that totally just slipped out, but hey i didn't want to lie, if we didn't have trust, we had nothing at all. Trust should always go far in every relationship. I don't regret telling him, not at all.