Spike #Wattys2016

impossible

I really put myself on the line here guys.  I had no idea what he would say and i honestly wasn't expecting an answer back, i just wanted to let him know that i felt that way.  I look up at his face and it was in pure shock, although i don't understand how he didn't see this coming, how could he not know?  His mouth tried to form words but nothing came out.  "Avery, you shouldn't joke about something like this."  Was he the one that was joking, or what? 

 "Spike i'm not joking, i love you.  I mean how could i not, you're everything to me.  Soft and warm, kind, caring, understanding, and most of all you make me feel beautiful.  So please, tell me how i couldn't love someone as perfect as you? I know that we haven't known each other long but when you know, you know."  Tears brimmed his eyes as he literally hit his knees.  His chest was rising up and down in a fast and panicked motion, he was still on the floor.  

I get off the bed to go sit with him because he looked like he needed some serious help.  I grab his chin and force eye contact with him.  "Spike, look at me, are you okay?"

 He nods as a small tear makes it's way down his face, "I just don't understand, you really love me, me?"

  Was he crazy?  "Yes, i do! I love you with all of my heart Spike, nothing matters anymore but you."  All of a sudden two arms wrap around me and we are off of the floor.  He sits me on the bed and gently cups my face and leans in to slowly kiss my lips.  "Avery, i don't know how you don't see it?  You are the only thing in my life that makes sense.  You are my sun, my moon, and my stars.  Without you i'm more than a blind man, i never want to spend a day without having all of your love, i want you now, tomorrow, and everyday for the rest of my life even if i don't have much of anything to give.  I promise to always put you first, to always take your side, and to spend every moment catering to any need or want you have.  Just please always love me back because if you don't, drive a knife through my heart because i would sell my soul just to see you smile."  This ladies and gentleman was the highlight of my life,  and know i knew without a doubt in my mind. I was ready, ready to give myself to him, because i was going to spend the rest of my life loving him and only him.

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We make our way downstairs hand in hand, with smiles etched on our faces.  I see that my  mother had already got a head start on breakfast so we just went straight to the table.  About five minutes later she brings our plates and sets them down in front of us.  Pancakes, eggs, and bacon were on the menu this morning and i started to eat like frat boy.  My mother laughs at my enthusiasm and smoothly starts to ask questions.  "So, how was your night Ave?"

  I slightly look over at Spike and i notice that his face had turned beat red, this was too funny. "It was okay, i slept like a rock though, best night of sleep i think i have had in a while."  I send a secret look to my mother and she got the hint, i wanted her to keep going. 

 "Well that's good sweetie, you look well rested, you're glowing." This was too funny, Spike had no idea what my mother and i were up too, we were bad.  "How about you Spike, did you sleep well too."  He choked on his food and reached for some water to wash down the chewed bacon that was trying to get stuck in his throat.

 "Yes mam, i slept very well thank you and the breakfast is delicious, i appreciate it."  My mother beaming with pride was a sight.  She never got complimented so i decided to give her some praise as well.  

"He's right mom, this is great.  Really hits the spot."  She smirked as she picked up her coffee mug as she sent me the same look i just gave her a moment ago, and i knew i was about to eat my words.

  "Oh, i bet it did."  I dropped my fork at my mother's words, can you say gross.

 "Mom, really?"  She gets up and grabs the empty plates then leans down to kiss the top of my head.

  "Just saying."  Spike looked like he was about to loose his breakfast, so i grabbed his hand and leaned over to kiss his cheek, trying to help calm him down.  I had to remember that he wasn't used to so much attention, but he was going to have to get use to it, he was apart of this family whether he liked it or not. 

Once my mom is out of sight Spike and i get up from the kitchen table and go outside to sit on the back porch.  We sit on the porch swing and just cuddle. This was so nice, just sitting here and relaxing, not having to worry about people calling him names or making him feel ashamed of something that he didn't even do in the first place.  Speaking of people, we still have to prove him innocent.  How the hell were we even going to do this, not to mention it was dangerous because whoever really did kill his parents wasn't going to be happy about two teenagers snooping around and trying to dig up the truth.  "I love you."

  He looked down at me and kissed my forehead. "I love you too, baby. So much." I grab his hand so i can play with his fingers while i ask him some questions.  I had to be careful here, he didn't like the thought of me getting involved and i really couldn't blame him, hell i didn't even want him doing this.  Just the thought of it made me kind of sick.

"Spike,  do you really think that we can do this, i mean... really find out who killed your parents?"  He seemed to think on what i said before he answered. 

"I think i have a good chance, but Avery, i really want you to stay out of this as much as possible.  If someone hurt you, especially because of me, i would be a real killer then.  If someone hurt you, took you from me... i can't even think about it." 

 He got that look on his face that meant business. That cold hard look that i had always seen him with when i first met him, which wasn't long ago, what a few days or so?  It didn't matter though, with him, i just knew.  I wasn't going to push the issue anymore, he was getting pissed.  I push up and kiss his lips.  Soft yet hard at the same time, glided over mine in small sweeping motions.  He pulled back to stare into my eyes, running his fingers over my face.  He came back, but only to bite my bottom lip softly.  I gasped at this and when my mouth opened he let his tongue slip inside my mouth, plunging in and out as he slowly puts his hands in my hair to hold me still while he dominated my mouth.

He slows down to peck my lips here and there, making sure he did his job to  satisfaction.  I think he notices the blush on my cheeks as he beams with pride.  "Well lady, looks like my jobs done.  I hate to have to do this, but i need to get back.  Iv'e got some work i have to do today and i really need a shower and a change of clothes."  I didn't mean to pout, it just kind of happened. He laughs and grabs my legs and waist, holding me bridal style so he could get us off the swing.  With a push we are off the swing and he puts me down, but i'm still just as close to him as i was on the swing.  He kisses me one more time before letting me go so he could head down the stairs to leave.  "I love you lady, be good."  He winks then he's gone and well i'm bored as hell, i guess now is a good time to go see if i can help my mom around the house.  It was huge and not going to clean it's self, i didn't have a problem helping her, i wasn't an asshole.