Gotta Love Those Animal Instincts (Jacob Black Fan Fiction)

Chapter 22 - Advice

     The sky outside my window was cloudy and dreary, kind of how I felt on the inside. The night had drug on and on. I didn't sleep. Couldn't sleep. I missed the warmth that I usually had beside me. The spot Jacob occupied on a regular basis...except for last night. I lay in bed curled up, staring out the window. As I laid there sulking, a knock came at the door. My heartbeat sped up at the chance it was Jacob, but fell to normal when I heard Billy's voice. "Hayley, are you ok? Its almost one and you haven't come out," he said from the other side of the door. "I'm fine," I reply in a not-so-convincing tone.

     The door creaks open and I heard Billy wheel himself in and come to a stop beside the bed. I kept my back to him. I don't want him to see me as the wreck I appear to be now. "Hayley, I just thought we could talk about what happened. I know Jacob and you got in a fight last night and Jacob was bad off when I went to talk to him after you ran out," Billy said. His words stung. Jacob was upset and it was my fault. Tears unwillingly began to fill my eyes. "I messed up Billy," I began, turning to face him and propping myself up on my elbow. "How so?" he asked, touching my hand in a fatherly way. "Well we were fighting because I called him overprotective when he just wants to keep me safe. And then I tried to walk away to stop the fight and he tried to stop me and I-I," I stammered unable to finish because of the tears streaming down my face. I was so ashamed of what I'd done and admitting it to Billy wouldn't be any better. Billy's eyes were full of understanding and compassion as he listened to me. "I slapped him. Now I'm afraid he'll never forgive me. I'm afraid that I'm becoming my father," I say sittng up in the bed and wiping my tears. " You're not going to turn out like your father. Come here," he said taking my hands.

     I looked down, too ashamed to look at him. "Now listen, every relationship has their ups and downs, its just how things are. Your's and Jacob's relationship is different from the normal though. You are his imprint and share a special bond only shared by true loves. Jacob loves you more then anything and would never dream of hurting you. He'll forgive you just as you'll forgive him," Billy exclaimed releasing my hands. I move a piece of hair behind my ears and look up at him. What he said ran through my mind. He was right. I loved Jacob with all my heart and Jacob loved me. All I wanted to do now was go find Jake. "Well, I'll leave you to think," Billy stated before making his way out of my room and closing the door behind him. I didn't need to think though. I knew exactly what I wanted to do. "I've got to get ready," I said to myself before scrambling out of bed and heading to my closet.

Jacob's POV

     I'm so stupid, I thought throwing a rock into the ocean below. Here I sat on the edge of the cliff where I told Hayley my secret, about being a werewolf, imprinting, everything. I should be home trying to talk to Hayley but I don't know what to say. I held no hard feelings toward her for the slap. It didn't even hurt that much. What hurt me was the reaon she did it. I had grabbed her. After everything I knew about her dad's abusive ways, I grabbed her and roughly too. "Idiot," I said out loud to myself, throwing another rock.

      A noise came from behind me but I didn't turn to look. I knew who it was. "What do you want Embry?" I asked staring at the water below. "Ah man, I thought I could sneak up on you," Embry exclaimed, taking a seat to my right. "You have never been able to do that, even when we weren't werewolves," I sighed looking over at him. "So, I heard about what happened with Hayley. You alright?" he asked, looking over at me as I return my gaze to the horizon. "Nah man. I'm pretty much mad at myself and just frustrated that I let myself continue the fight," I state, tossing another rock.

     "You know, Hayley and I talked about you yesterday on the walk to the beach," he began, waiting for me to comment but I remain silent so he continues. "She told me she thought you were acting strange. I told her it was just because you loved her so much. You do, right?" he asks. "Of course I do. I love her more then life itself. I know I've been acting strange. I guess its because the thought of ever losing her because I couldn't do something kills me inside. Then during the fight I grabbed her harder then I should have. I don't blame her for hitting me. I just want her to be happy," I ramble on feeling a weight being lifted off my shoulders, glad to get it all out. "Dude, she is. You make her happier then anything. I'm sure she's jst like you are now. Upset....mad at herself. Just go see her. Talk to her. I'm sure she justs wants to get past this and back to your lives," Embry stated, placing a hand on my shoulder. I stare at him, know he was right. "Thanks Embry. Your right, I'm going to go talk to her," I say standing up amd walking back to the woods, leaving Embry on the cliff. Before I shift, I look back at Embry. "When did you become so smart?" I ask with a laugh. He turns with a smile. "I have my moments," he replies with a shrug and tossing a rock of his own. I give him a wave before shifting and making my way towards the house.

Hayley's POV

     I throw my hair up in a ponytail and put on some shorts and jacket over my tank. I didn't really care what I looked like, I was just eager to get to Jacob. I grabbed my keys off the dresser after slipping on sandals and bolt out the door. I almost walk out the front door but I head back to the livong room. "Thank you Billy," I say giving him a hug and a kiss on the cheek before going outside. I sprint ot the car, fumbling with the keys once I reach the door.

     Then I hear something to my right. I looked over at the edge of the woods. There he stood. He was securing his sweatpants, obviously having just shifted back from his wolf form. He hadn't spotted me yet. My heartbeat quickened in my chest. The sound thudded in my ears as I watch him from his spot. Then he looks up and sees me. He freezes in his spot and stares at me. My breath catches when his gaze fixes on mine. All these emotions filled me. I wanted to rush at him and say everything I felt. Wrap him in my arms and apologize for all that happened but I wasn't sure what was going through his head. I didn't know what his reaction would be. I was almost at a loss of words. All I could manage was...

"Jacob."