A Boy And His Box

Brave

I'd like to say I'm brave.

Even though I'm afraid of a lot of things like heights, bugs, being alone.

I am brave.

I've managed to say," I love you".

That isn't as easy as it sounds.

Love is scary.

But it isn't the falling in love part that's terrifying, its what happens afterwards.

Say you've fallen for this girl.

When you tell her I love you, you don't know what's gonna happen next like a fuckin dinosaur with eye lasers can jump though a window and sing "Hello" by Adel while playing a banjo.

Or she can say no, which would be much worse.

Its unpredictable. Falling in love is a lot like being afraid of heights. Its not the distance or the fall that scares you.

Its moment when your body hits the ground that scares you.

Cause you know no matter what happens you'll never be the same again.

Its the same as jumping off a cliff.

Well not exactly the same, the cliff thing is a bit more extreme ,but they're similar.

They are both a commitment.

You can't just half jump off a cliff just as I can't say "I love you" and it just being that, me saying it and not meaning anything.

I hear of  people being able to roll it off there tongues to get want they want just to leave it there.

Like they walked their dog and refused to pick up its shit without realizing that someone else will step in it making it harder for the next person who says it to clean.

They are not people I want to associate with.

But back to the cliff analogy.

Once you jump. That's it. You just have to hope there is someone there to catch you.

The thing about love is no one is going to catch you. You don't fall. You float. Stuck in the air. Waiting for gravity to turn back on. Sometimes you are just left hanging there.

Its a dangerous game we all play.

But we live in a world where elephants are afraid of rats.

Maybe we're just making it a bigger deal than it actually is.