In love with my best friend

Back Home

I was back in Florida, back in my home town. It feels good to be back, although I'm still a little sad about leaving Zack. It felt weird, but as good weird to be here. I was ready to start everything again. To start a new career, and to start a new life for myself.

All of my life I've never had anyone. I've always felt pity for myself and I feel as if it's about time I stop and just- well live life as it is. I can't stop the things I don't like. Like I couldn't stop Adam from marrying Nicole, like I couldn't stop falling in love with him. And well I guess that's okay.

I just feel like I need to be here

I had gotten myself an apartment and Katie thankfully hooked me up with a job so I wouldn't lose the apartment as soon as I got it. I was happy to be back and well I hadn't told anyone I was back besides Katie, I was still pretty happy.

Although eventually I'd have to tell Adam that I was back. I was a little confused on where we stood together. Everything seemed to always be confusing between me and Adam, and maybe that's just how it'll always be, well with my luck.

But I didn't want to tell Adam I was back. I wanted time for myself just for a little bit. I didn't come back here for Adam, I came for myself. And right now I'm not trying to start any type of relationship with Adam. He's going through a divorce and I just broke off my engagement.

I don't think either of us should be rushing into any type of relationship, rather it's with each other or anyone else. It's for the best that we kind of just give each other space, and when the time comes where we need to talk about us, I guess we will.

Although I first needed to tell him I was back and that I'm staying this time.

"I like this apartment." Katie says, doing a little spin, looking around the apartment.

"Yeah I like it." I agree. "So you're really back this time?" She asks, arching her eyebrow. "Yup." She nods. "I'm glad.. anyways so what happened between you and Zack?" She asks, narrowing her eyes.

"Well I ended everything with him. I told him I wasn't really happy and it's best that we just go our separate ways." I mutter.

"Wow and did he take it well?" she asks, arching her eyebrow. "Kind of, he didn't look as mad as I thought he would. I think apart of him actually felt the same as I did.." I trail off, biting my lip.

"Oh.. Well so- are you planning on telling Adam you're back anytime soon?" she asks.

"I don't know, I don't know if should." I shrug. "Well you have to. Don't you at all remember you and Adam being best friends? You can't just throw that away because of how you feel about him, actually if anything you guys should be as close as ever! Adam's going through a really hard time right now and I think he needs a you, not as a girlfriend or whatever but as a friend." She point out.

She had a point. I just- well it's just hard for me and Adam right now. But I guess I need to be there for him..

"Fine I'll meet up with him tomorrow." I mutter, feeling kind of defeated.

"But if this goes bad for me, I'm blaming you!" I point out.

"Okay fine, whatever. But I'm sure it won't go bad, you're Adams best friend, and always will be."