In love with my best friend

Shocker

Well being pregnant sucked. I felt constantly sick, the smell of anything vinegary made me want to vomit, as well as the sight of cheese. So I couldn't have anything with cheese which is horrible because I love cheese!

But Rebecca, Adams mom, said that nausea and the constant puking usually goes away after the first few months. I was hoping she was right about that!

On top of everything, I kept getting panic attacks. I kept thinking about being a mother, and how nervous I was and how unprepared I felt.

Adam reassured me that he felt the same way about becoming a father, but it gets better, and soon I'll feel more prepared. I hope he's right about that.

Because God did I feel nervous about this whole thing!

But Adam had been great. Always getting up at 2 in the morning when I'm starving for anything with tons of sugar, he'll go to any open store and get me food. Or when he holds my hair back for me well I puke my guts out, or how he stopped eating everything I get sick from.

Of course the last one makes sense to do, but still, he had been awesome.

"How's the pregnancy?" Katie asks, taking a seat on the couch, handing me a glass of tea. "Miserable." She laughs. "Yeah, I can imagine." She mutters, putting her mug of tea on the coffee table.

"Are you excited?" She asks eagerly. "Yes of course, nervous as fuck, but excited." She nods. "And Adam?" She gives me a knowing look. I knew what she was referring to.

Back when Adam basically spelled it out that he didn't want kids with me, I had basically cried to Katie the whole time about it. Of course, it was all a misunderstanding.

I didn't blame her for being curious about it now. I myself was a little afraid that at one moment in time, Adam would back out and not want this with me. Although I doubt it'll ever happen, you can't help but be afraid.

But I couldn't doubt Adam like that. I felt horrible for even doubting him. He had been an amazing husband this whole time and here I was being a bitch.

"He's been great. Also very helpful I don't know what I'd do without him." I murmur, looking down at my glass of tea.

"I just can't believe where my life is right now, you know? Two years ago I was in love with him, and he was with someone else. I was forcing myself to try and fall for someone else when in reality all I wanted was him. Now here we are, married, expecting our first child." She smiles, looking like she was tearing up.

"Don't cry! You're gonna make me cry! And my emotions have been everywhere since I got pregnant!" I hiss at her jokingly. "I know! I know! I just- I really am so freaking happy for you and Adam. You two deserve so much happiness together!" She shakes her head, wiping away her tears.

"Stop it!" I scoot closer to her, taking her in a hug. "I'm sorry I'm crying. I just love you and Adam so much." She chuckles, hugging me back.

"Are you sure that's it?" I dare to ask, suddenly feeling like something was off. She shakes her head, crying even more into my chest. "Cole and I are getting a divorce." She whispers. I sigh, shaking my head.

Katie and Cole had been together since high school. We all knew they'd end up marrying each other one day and having kids. We were right about the marrying part. They had been married for about 4 years now.

I couldn't see them getting a divorce, what so ever!

"What happened?" I ask, running my hand down the length of her hair as she cried on me.

"I have no idea, first w-we were happy! And then he just started drifting away from me. I thought maybe it was my fault, I tried- I really did. Maybe I didn't try hard enough though." She sobs even more.

"Some things can't be fixed sweety but no matter what it's not your fault! Sometimes you just can't control it." I had no idea what to say to her, I just felt horrible. My best friend was going through something heartbreaking, she was there for me with everything with Adam. I felt horrible knowing I couldn't truly understand what she was going through

I couldn't even begin to understand what she was going through. Although for a second there I thought Adam and I would be getting a divorce, we weren't actually getting one. I wasn't sure what to tell her because I had never been through what she was going through.

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"Did you hear about Katie and Cole?" I ask Adam, taking a seat on the couch and laying back, putting my legs across his lap. He shakes his head, most if not all his attention on the tv.

He was watching whatever sports game was on tonight.

"They're getting a divorce." I murmur, searching for his shocked reaction. "Oh yeah! Cole told me." He smiles before going back to watching the tv. "Seriously? When?" I sit up, grabbing the remote and turning off the tv. 

"Allison, look I love you, but if this is going to ever work, you can't disturb me when I'm watching the game." I frown before grabbing the pillow behind me and chucking it at him. He, of course, caught it, with my luck.

"First of all, I've known you for years, I know that. But I also am your pregnant wife and you need to be nice to me!" I point out. He narrows his eyes looking like he was thinking about it. 

"Okay, good point you got me." He chuckles.

"SO when did Cole tell you about him and Katie?" He shrugs. "Like a week ago." 

"A week!" I yell, maybe too loud because he slightly jumped, obviously taken back.

"Yeah?" I put my hands up, giving him a "what the hell" kinda look.

"Why didn't you tell me?!" I hiss. "He asked me not to. He hadn't told Katie he wanted a divorce yet and he knew you'd probably tell her if I told you." I seriously wanted to slap him right now. But his face was too perfect to ruin.

"Why is Cole even talking to you about this shit? You don't even like him!" Adam didn't like him because of anything specific, he just found him very "bland" as he puts it.

"Well yeah- but I guess he doesn't know that. Anyways, Katie can probably do better anyway." he shrugs as if it was nothing.

I roll my eyes, laying back down. "We're married, you can't keep secrets from me anymore," I muttered, crossing my arms over my chest.

He chuckles, standing up and bending down to my level. He leans in, pecking my lips before poking my nose with his finger and saying "boop" at the same time.

"Are you five?!" 

He smiles, his very cheeky smile I loved so much and he knows I love so much!

I grab his face and kiss his irresistible lips.

God, I love him so much.