not a dream ; connor franta fanfiction

Chapter 12

I sat on the curb of the road just crying and hoping someone would come up to me and comfort me, but no one did. I was worthless. I hated everyone right now. Especially that bitch Elena. She reminded me of Jenna from my dream, a whore. Why couldn't she just get her own boyfriend?! Why take mine?! Ugh my life is so hard.

I wiped my eyes with my sleeves as someone sat next to me.

"I saw." He said. I didn't exactly know who he was, but I didn't really care right now.

"Saw what?" I asked as I looked up to see Jc sitting next to me.

"What just happened." He said softly. "I'm sorry."

When he said 'I'm sorry' it made me cry even harder. I wrapped my arms around him and cried into his shoulder while he whispered things like 'it's okay' and 'it'll be fine.'

"No Jc. It's not fine." I said as I lifted my head. "He doesn't love me. How could I be so stupid? I really believed he loved me."

"He did love you. In fact...he still does." Jc said as he wiped a tear from my cheek. "I saw him after you ran off. I think he started crying too."

"Whatever. It still won't change what he did to me." I cried more. I still loved Connor no matter what... I was just mad.

I heard someone walk behind us and them Jc get up and walk away. He talked to the person but I couldn't make it out because they whispered

"Taylor." I heard Connor say.

I looked up. His eyes were red like mine from crying. He had tears down his face like me. "I don't want to talk to you-"

He cut me off. "Please. Just listen...please." He insisted. I looked back at him. "I just want to let you know before you never talk to me ever again...that you were the first girl I actually really loved. I didn't know what love was, until I met you." Connor stopped a moment and looked away as if he was crying. After a while he finally said, "I regretted everything after I saw your face. I remembered how happy I was without her in my life. I'll admit I didn't pull away when she kissed me, but I wish I did...If I knew this would happen."

"Connor... I'm sorry." I wiped my tears away.

"Why are you sorry? I should be."

"I can't be mad at you. I love you so much, and I would never let some stupid girl get in between our relationship." I smiled slightly and wiped his tears with my sleeve. He smiled back. "Please don't cry anymore. It makes me sad to see you sad." I said softly.

He grabbed my hand and kissed me passionately. I'm so glad I didn't lose him forever.