Martyr's Play [COMPLETED]

Chapter 19

"What do you want for dinner?" Nathan asked. We're here at his house. Lumipat kami kaninang umaga dahil 'yon ang gusto niya. Hindi ko naman pweding iwan si Nathalie sakanya.

"Kahit ano nalang jan" sagot ko sakanya habang nag-aayos ng mga gamit sa closet.

"Desert?" Tanong niya ulit which annoyed me even more. Kanina pa kasi siya nagtatanong kung anong gusto ko. Kung may kailangan ba ako.

"Pwede ba Nathan, stop acting nice. Wala dito si Nathalie" irita kong sabi sakanya.

"What's wrong?" Lumapit siya sakin.

"What's wrong?! Tinatanong mo pa talaga?" I ask him with annoyance.

"I'm here for my daughter hindi para pagsilbihan mo!" I blurted out.

"Look, Jaz. I'm just want you to feel comfortable here. I want you to enjoy your stay here as my wife not just the mother of my daughter" he said which makes me cuckled. I almost even laugh.

"Wife my ass" I said while laughing sarcasticly.

"Nathan, we both know what's the real score between us."  baka nakakalimutan niyang pumayag lang ako sa ganitong set-up para sa anak ko.

He sighed.

"Can't you just give this relationship a one last chance for Nathalie?" He asked.

"Are you really asking for a 'CHANCE' for this 'RELATIONSHIP'?" I chuckled. "Oc'mon . How can you call this , a relationship? Don't make me laugh Nathan. You know I'm so done with this. And I'm so done with you."

Iniwan ko siyang mag-isa sa kwarto pero hindi pa ako nakakalabas ay hinigit niya ang braso ko saka ako pinaharap sakanya.

"Why you sounds so bitter?"  nang-uuyam niyang tanong.

"Tell me. Are you still not over me?" He grinned and he caught me offguard.

Ang kapal ng mukha niyang magtanong. Pambihira!

"Wanna know the truth?" I smirk. Binitawan niya ang pagkakahawak sa braso ko.

"Yes. You're right. I'm still not over you. Happy now?" I said while looking at him directly into his eyes.

"Then, why....why you're holding back?" He ask.

I scoffed. Nagtatanong pa talaga siya.

"Are you seriously asking?" I ask him sarcasticly.

He hold my shoulder pero tinanggal ko yun.

"Wag tayong maglokohan dito Nathan. Because, I know that YOU KNOW why I'm holding back. Sawang-sawa na akong masaktan. Sawang-sawa na akong umasa sa mga pangako mo. Sawang-sawa na ako. Tapos na ako sayo. Pinagsisisihan ko na nagpakatanga ako sayo. Pinagsisisihan ko lahat. At kung may maganda ka mang naidulot sakin yun ay ang anak ko.!" yumuko lang siya pagkatapos ng sinabi ko.

"You should know your fucking place. I'm here for my daughter not for you"

I can see how pain crosses his face. But I don't know why it seems like I don't even care.

"Is that it?" He smiled bitterly.

"Yeah. You're right I've wasted every single chance that you've given to me. I'm wasting those fucking chances you've given to me, because I thought it's unlimited when it comes to you. But fuck the hell up, its not."  he confessed.

I am staring at him the whole time but he's still leaning down.

And when his eyes settled on me I can see my reflection through his glassy eyes.

"And now here I am again asking for another chance. I might be insane for asking this, but Jazmine could you just set aside our past from now on and live in the present with me and our daughter?" He said with sincerity. I can see and I can feel it.

I just see the opportunity for us. Opportunity to live as a family. Opportunity to give Nathalie a complete and happy family.

With that I let my guards down. I let my wall fall.

And I nod as a sign of saying "okay. Let's restart everything"

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