Martyr's Play [COMPLETED]

Chapter 22

Nathan's POV

Damn. Nakakagago lang. Nasa bahay ko na nga ang mag-ina ko pero parang pag-aari parin sila ni Noriel.

I even saw how Jazmine hug this bastard beside me. My daughter clung onto his neck na para bang miss na miss nito. Damn. I'm her father for fvck's sake.

"Daddy, I wanna go home" said Nathalie like she's pleading.

"Hey baby this is your home" Noriel said.

I look at Jazmine wala man lang siyang imik.

"But I want in our house daddy. Please pretty please Daddy" she even kiss Noriel.

"Princess, don't you wanna stay with daddy?" Masuyo kong tanong sa anak ko. Hindi sila pwedeng mawala sakin. Lalo na ngayon unti-unti ko ng nakukuha ang loob nila.

"I want daddy Noriel!" She burst out.

Fck! No.

I look at Jazmine with my eyes pleading pero nag-iwas lang siya ng tingin.

"Baby, you need to stay here because daddy is busy so daddy Nathan could look after you. Okay?" Noriel said.

"You love us right? Me and mimi" parang nagtatampo na tanong ng anak ko.

"Ofcourse baby . I do" said Noriel then kissed Nathalie's forehead.

"Then, why you're leaving me and mimi?"

"Daddy is busy ,baby" paliwanag nalang ni Noriel.

"Okay. But you'll get us back when youre not busy ah?"

Tumango-tango lang si Noriel.

Damn I'm out of place here.

"Promise?"

"Promise"

Ang hirap palang makihati sa iba. This moment suppose to be mine kung hindi lang ako naging tanga at gago. Eh di sana ako ang kasamang lumaki ng anak ko. That should be me who's there when Jaz gave birth. It should be me who's having sleepless night because of Nathalie. It should be me who's changing her diaper. It should be me who's watching her the first time she walk, hearing her saying 'daddy' for the first time.

It should be me. But I missed all of it. I missed everything.

So ,here I am sharing with my bestfriend who've been there for my daughter and my Jazmine--if she's still mine.

Just thinking that someone owns Jazmine makes me see blood.

Yeah. I am a big asshole back then but I became a better man now. For Jaz.

"Nathan.. Ano ba?!" She escape from my embrace.

Damn it hurts.

"Matutulog na ako" she said then left me.

Five days na ang nakalipas simula noong dumalaw dito si Noriel at simula noong araw na 'yon Jazmine started to sleep with Nathalie. For fucking five nights. Its not that I can't make love to her kasi hindi pa naman namin nagagawa ulit yon. But damn, iba parin 'yong pakiramdam na yakap mo ang taong mahal mo bago ka matulog at paggising mo sa umaga nasa tabi mo parin siya.

Humiga na ako at pinakatitigan nalang ang kisame.

What's happening? We're okay for two weeks then now , para nanaman ako nakikipagsiksikan sa buhay nila.

Kung hindi ba ako naging gago hindi mangyayari 'to? Wala ba akong karapatan sa mga pagkakataon na dapat mayroon ako tulad ngayon?

Damn. Nasasaktan din ako. Everytime that Nathalie wants to go home in Noriels house. And everytime Jazmine ignoring me.

It hurts. Damn hurts..

I felt like begging for their love. Begging for their attention. I'm trying. I'm trying to be patient. Alam ko kasalanan ko , pero hanggang kailan ko pagbabayaran ang pagkakamaling nagawa ko?

Hanggang kailan ako manlilimos ng pagmamahal at atensiyon sa sariling anak at babaeng mahal ko?

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(A.n: nababakla na ata si Nathan. Nasasaktan na kasi. Nagiging madrama. Ganyan daw po eh pag totoong nagmamahal ang mga lalaki madrama at OA. HAHAHA)