Martyr's Play [COMPLETED]

Chapter 16

I don't really know what's running on Noriels mind at iniwan niya ako sa table with Nathan alone. He even take Nathalie.

He give me a weak smile before leaving. And I would know ,he's trying to make me happy this time. But for what? . I sighed.

"So, ehm. Since when you were together?" I snapped back to reality when Nathan started talking.

"Almost Four years" I casually answered.

"Your daughter.. How old is she?" He asked.

I can't help but to inhale harldy because I can feel that I might run out of breath.

"She's four years old" I answered and slowly closed my eyes to calm myself.

I saw him on my peripheral view that he was just nodding.

"She got all your features and I think its being unfair for Noriel" he softly cuckled.

Hindi mo lang alam. She got your eyes.

Kahit gusto kong sabihin sakanya. I can't.

Anong isusumbat ko sakanya? Is that because pinili niya yong bata sa sinapupunan ng ibang babae? Which is I actually understand.

Hindi ko siya masisisi to chose the baby kasi wala naman siyang kaalam-alam. Pero hindi parin naalis sa isip ko na 'what if he knows about our baby?' --what if I told him? Is he going to be a good father?

I exhaled.

"You seem nervous" its more on statement.

Tumingin lang ako sakanya and give him a weak smile.

Napansin kong may nanunuod sakin and I know it was Noriel from afar.

Saaabihin ko ba? I ask myself. And it seems like Noriel know whats running in my mind and he nod.

I inhaled and exhaled hardly.

"I have something to tell you" I said and Nathan look at me with curiousity.

"But before that lets have a deal. You're won't take her away from me" I said calmly.

Alam ko kahit hindi ko sabihin sakanya ng direkta malalaman niya.

"You mean..?" He uttered.

"Yes" I just answered.  "Hindi ko siya ipagkakait sayo. I will introduce you to her right after this if its alright to you. But theres only one rule Nathan. ONE RULE" I empasized the words 'one rule'
"You won't take her away from me" I added.

He was just looking at me blankly. Open-mouthed as a sign of surprise.

Tumayo na ako para kunin si Nathalie to introduce her to Nathan pero hindi pa ako nakakailang hakbang he grab my wrist.

"Why? Why did you---"

"Why did I?" I cuckled. "Remember four years ago. The night I went to your pad. You're with someone and heard your conversation. She told you that she will abort the baby kapag hindi mo siya pinakasalan. I've heard all of it even when you said how much you love me. But it doesn't change the fact that she's going to kill the baby when you refuse. Noong gabing 'yon I'm also planning to surprise you. To tell you that we're having a baby. But then it was me, ako ang nasurpresa" I smile bitterly.

"And that night I made a decision the self-less one. Ako. Kaya kong panindigan ang anak ko even without a father and I won't going to take away an innocent life of my baby because he doesn't have a father . But the girl you're with didn't think the same way as mine. Now am I making sense?" I explained kahit hindi ko naman kailangang magpaliwanag.

"Jaz" is all that he can say.

"Let go now. I'm going to get her and introduce you to her" I pulled my hand.

Siguro hindi pa din nag sink-in sa utak niya lahat ng sinabi ko. That we have our child.

"Baby, come with me for a while I will introduce you to your daddy" sabi ko sa anak ko.

"Daddy? But I have my daddy" timingin siya kay Noriel.

Lumapit naman si Noriel kay Nathalie and bend his knees para mapantayan ang liit nito.

"Wouldn't that be great? Magiging dalawa na ang daddy mo. Me and the one who's going to introduce by Mommy" Noriel give her an encouraging smile same as me.

I feel guilty about Noriel. So I hug him.

"Hey" he hold my chin up. "I will be okay. I know my place" he said and give a peck on my lips.

"And I trust you" he added and kissed my forehead.

"Now. Go. Introduce Nathan" he give me an encouraging smile and let go of the hug.

'I love you' I mouthed while walking away from him and he just smile.

I feel guilty for Noriel. He took all responsibility of me then I can't just love him as much as he loves me.

Hindi pa kami nakakalapit sa table na kinaroroonan ni Nathan, agad siyang tumayo at niyakap si Nathalie which makes my heart flattered.

"Hey. Baby, I'm your Daddy" naiiyak niyang sabi sa bata.

Lumingon muna sakin si Nathalie at tinanguan ko lang siya para sabihin its okay. And what she did next surprise me.

She wipe her fathers tears.

"Are you gay ? why are you crying?" Inosenti niyang tanong.

Tumawa lang naman si Nathan.

"No baby Im just happy to see you" Nathan said.

"What's your name po?" Tanong ni Nathalie.

"Nathaniel" he answered.

Pinapanood ko lang silang mag-usap I didn't interfere with their conversation.

Lumaki si Nathalie na si Noriel ang kinikilalang ama at hindi ako gaanong kasamang ina para ipagkait sakanya ang katotohanan. Katotohanan na ang ama niya ay hindi na parte ng buhay ko.

Kahit alam kong mayroon parin siyang puwang sa puso ko hindi ko siya hahayaang maging parte ng buhay ko . Dahil baka ikamatay ko lang ulit.

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(A.N: Typos, grammatical errors? Peace po tayo jan. Hihi)