It was... the Little Things

And now I know how...

I was back behind the maths block, while sitting on the concrete bench, I replayed what I was going to see.

I sighed, I don't know why I was even practicing. I would probably forget everything anyway.

People covered in colorful shirts played different types of sport at every corner of the field. I eyed the soccer field knowing that Sam was there. I smiled as he scored a goal, not to shabby considering how horrible he was at football!

"Kaisley?"

The butterflies fluttered around my stomach as I heard his voice.

I turned and smiled weakly, "hey Oliver"

He made his way to the bench,"Oliver? What ever happened to Twist?"

I ignored the question, he sat down right next to me. I tried to shift away subtly but he noticed.

I could see the hurt now.

"Kaisley what's going on! I thought that you'd be happy to see me!"

"I am happy to see you!"

"Well it certainly doesn't look like it!"

"Things aren't always what they seem"

"Yah maybe your feelings weren't what they seemed either!"

"What the heck!" Okay this was the first time that we'd argued, it wasn't easy.

"I've been waiting to see you for three fricking weeks! I thought that you'd at least be excited to see me! But I guess not....I mean did you even miss me!?"

"Of course I did!"

"Sure you did"

"Look Oliver, it's not my fault that you couldn't control your anger! It's not my fault that you got suspended!"

"I had every reason in the world to hit him and you know it!"

I looked down, okay yes he did have every reason to be mad. He did.

"I'm sorry..."

He didn't say anything for a while,"did you miss me?"

"Oliver...of course I missed you"

"Then why are you being like this?"

"Oliver...."

"You don't like me anymore....do you?"

I shook my head slowly

"I should have known from the minute you didn't call me Twist...I'm so stupid"

"You're not"

"Yes I am....to think that this would actually last, I shouldn't have expected you to have feelings for me, I mean I am leaving next week"

The realization dawned on me, the month was coming to an end, he was leaving....

"Oliver listen"

He turned not really wanting to listen, but I held his hand and forced myself to look into his eyes

"Every single feeling that you had for you...every moment...every memory...it was all real"

"It was?"

"Yes it was...but those feelings...I wasn't reading them properly"

"What do you mean?"

"Oliver...you're my brother..."

He pulled away, and I expected him to, "what the heck!"

"Look, I was going through an emotional phase when you came, my feeling were so messed up and I felt that I needed someone else, someone to prove to others that I could move on"

"Wait is this about Sam!?" I could hear the anger

"No! Well...yes it is....but not completely!"

"What do you mean not completely!"

"Look Oliver! Sam and I have feelings for each other but he isn't important at the moment because he isn't here! Right now it's just you and me!"

"What do you want to say"

"Oliver when you first came, we connected. And I could feel that connection because I felt like already knew you, I felt like what we had was different...it was new. When you trusted me so quickly I kinda felt obliged to be part of your life"

"You mean you felt like you had to protect me?"

"Yes. And more than that I needed to protect myself"

"What?"

"I felt that I had something to prove, that I was over Sam. And then you came along, everything just seemed right. I had to like you to prove a point and I knew that no one would expect me to get to attached because you were going to leave. I knew that no one would judge me if I held back....I felt secure"

"I was a rebound crush?"

"Oliver you were so much more than that, I may have not loved you, but I did care about you"

"You did?"

"Oliver I love you...and now I know how"

He got up, not a word.

I knew that this would end badly. I was a horrible person and I knew it. I led him on made him think something that wasn't even true. I felt awful.

But he had to know the truth.

I was done lying to people.

I was done lying to myself.

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Hey guys! Not a very long chapter, but it is extremely important. Oliver and Kaisley were never real, they were what we wanted to be real. Sometimes people who we love hurt us so badly that we feel the need to push our feelings onto someone else. As much as you may truly care for the person and nurture the relationship so well, what we fail to understand is that it's not real. And it won't be real. The more you lie to yourself the more you will end up getting hurt when the truth comes out.
Phew...that ends my lecture. Please continue to vote and share...love you all!!!:)

-Kanishka1206