Forever

Chapter 21-Speechless

For the rest of the weekend, our eyes never met. Occasionally I would try and talk to her but it was no use. She was never going to get over this. I had done the worst thing I could possibly do to her. I've done the lowest of the low. 

Ellie kicked Harry out of the house so I had nobody to talk to or comfort me.Why should I have someone to tell me every things okay? It's not. None of this is okay. Its never, ever going to be the same between the three of us or me and Ellie. Harry still text now and again to make sure Im okay and Ellie hasn't thrown any punches yet. Although she has tried once or twice, but I knew they were coming so I ducked when the tried to throw a punch. 

She's been hovering around the house, acting like this isn't bothering her one bit, but inside I know its teaaring her apart from the inside. Walking out of the kitchen, I spot Ellie lounging on the couch eating chips and watching How I Met Your Mother. That's mine and her's favourite show, we'd always sit on the couch and cuddle as it came on. 

I take a deep breath and walk over to her. She looks over in my direction and scoffs. She really does hate me. I plop down on the couch next to her and she instantly moves further away. "Ellie look I-" She cuts me off. "I don't want to hear any of your poor excuses for why you slept with my boyfriend. You did it, end off. There is nothing in the world that you and Harry can say or do to make me forgive you. So just leave me alone" Her eyes focused on the TV, she flicks through the channels and carried on eating as she spoke to me. 

"Bu-" I tried to add.

"But nothing now leave, I don't wanna look at you right now" She waves her hand in the air. As I walk away from her to go into my bedroom, I hear a distant and quiet sigh coming from her. I know she doesn't want this, I don't want this. She has every right to be mad and hate me. I just don't want to accept the fact that my own flesh and blood can't stand the sight of me. It's too much pain for me to endure.

I sob as I walk up the stairs and come to my bedroom door. The weekends almost over and mom and dad should be back tomorrow. Shit. They're going to know that something up the way Ellie's acting. I take a deep sigh as I push my bedroom door open and dive on my bed. This weekend has been hell. I actually can't wait to go back to school. 

God I'd never thought I'd say that.

With my head in my pillow, the tears run down my cold face. This time, I cried for an hour. During my crying session, I hear a light tap on my balcony window. At first I thought it was just a tree branch tapping the window, but the tapping continued. It wasn't windy outside, so I moved my head from the pillow and turned it to the side. A tall, dark haired figure was standing on my balcony and I jumped. 

"Oh my god!" I yelled. Harry was standing their tapping on the window. Jumping off the bed, I unlocked the door and he came in. "What are you doing here" I said folding my arms across my chest. He ran his fingers through his dark thick curls and spoke. "I was worried and you weren't answering your phone. So I thought I'd come and check on you". 

I turned around and walked to the door, shutting it so Ellie couldn't hear the sound of me and Harry talking. "You shouldn't be here Harry" I shyly said. Turning away from the closed door, Harry was no longer standing near the balcony door. He was stood right in front of me, inches away from my face. He moved his hand toward my face and tucked a strand of hair behind my ear. "Well I am here...Have you been crying again?" He placed his rather large and on my cheek and wiped the mascara from under my eye with his thumb. 

I nodded and looked him in the eyes. It looked like he had also been crying. There were bags under his eyes and his eyes were blood shot. He shouldn't have been crying, this isn't his fault, it's mine. I should have never drank one bit. I'm the one to blame and nobody else.

H a r r y

I wipe the black mascara from under her eye with my thumb. It looks like she's been crying for ages, I hate this. She shouldn't be crying over this, I'm the one who took advantage over her, she just got really drunk and had no idea what she was doing. She shouldn't have to suffer like this. "Shhh it's okay" I whispered into her ear as she sobbed into my chest and continued to cry. Her hands placed on my chest and pushed me away. "No! No it's not okay Harry! Stop saying that!" I backed away and she began to raise her voice.

"None of this is okay! My sister hates me and can't even look at me because of what I did! I can't bare another second where she wont look at me! And it's all because of that night! You shouldn't even be here" She held her hands to her face and paced up and down her room. "W-were not even together. Why do you care about me so much! It doesn't make any sense! You started talking to me 4 days ago! Before that you didn't even know who I was! Why! Why do you care about me like this! Your in love with my sister!" She huffed and pushed me away from her again. 

I took a step closer to her, she tried to push me away but she wasn't strong enough. Her hands were hitting me away but i gripped onto them tight and she stopped. "I care about you Chloe. Is it so wrong for someone to care about you. I don't know why I feel this way about you. I care so much about you, I always have. But if I did show it, Ellie would go insane. I've cared about you for as long as I can remember" I looked deep into her eyes and I could see she was fighting back the tears. 

C h l o e

I wanted to kick and scream for him to let go of me, but I didn't want to. His body felt so warm against mine. His hands fit around my wrist perfectly. He stared deep into my eyes as I tried to fight back the tears that were about to flood. "T-the reason I ended things with Ellie a couple of months ago, w-was because I...I wanted to be with you" he struggled to say that. I was speechless. I stood frozen for the 100th time this week. He ended things with my sister, to be with me.