Violins And Cookies (Phan AU)

The One With The Stupid Fucking Boy

Dan woke up the next day on Phil's bed which was empty still dressed into his clothes of last night the top buttons of his shirt all unbuttoned.

Dan then sat up realizing what had happened last night.

Phil had kissed him.

His head hurt a little but he slowly remembered the little details from the past night. After their sudden kiss, Dan was very taken aback and Phil had just giggled and kissed Dan's lips again.

"Let's go somewhere quiet," he said and Dan nodded as Phil took his hand and they left the room to go the garden sitting on one of the benches closer than ever before. Phil was very giggly a possible effect from the alcohol. Dan was mostly in his senses.

"You know Dan?" Phil said. "I always wanted to kiss you"

"Oh" Dan had said failing to hide the surprise in his tone"

"Yeah you have real pretty lips and also a pretty face," Phil said.

"Uh thanks,This time," Dan said.

Phil smiled and leaned in kissing DaThis time,it wasn't awkward as Dan's hands moved naturally around Phil's neck and Phil's on Dan's face. Their kiss deepened and Dan couldn't get over the sweet taste of Phil's mouth.

Phil pulled away their foreheads touching.

"I have never liked kissing someone so much", he said and Dan felt that all of this was too good to be true but as Phil kissed him again he knew the thing that he had been waiting for months was happening.

He was actually kissing Phil Lester.

The details from the rest of the night were however blurry and Dan couldn't really remember exactly how he got here.

However he remembered every kiss vividly.

Dan was also wondering where Phil was. He had probably woken up early. Dan wanted to see him but also didn't want to face him after what happened last night. But for now Dan's priority was to shower.

So he went to rhe bathroom and took a nice shower and when he stepped out Phil came in and just stared at a shirtless Dan.

"I am sorry I shouldn't have barged in like that. I'll give you some privacy" 

Dan nodded as Phil closed the door very confused at Phil's sudden distance. Just yesterday he had no hesitation in kissing Dan but today he was acting so formal. Maybe it had to do with the fact that Dan was shirtless he thought as he put on a T-shirt. He decided not to give it much thought as he went downstairs to find Phil sitting on the couch.

"Hey", Phil said.

"Hey", Dan smiled. "Where is everyone?"

"My brother left already and mum and dad are out"

"So it's only us then?"

"Yeah"

Dan said nothing as he sat down next to Phil closer than he usually did. He was expecting Phil to talk about last night but he didn't and they just sat in silence.

Dan decided it was too much and spoke up.

"About last night..."

"Yeah" Phil cut him off. "I got mad drunk I know, I shouldn't have" 

He continued.

"I probably did something stupid" he laughed.

"Don't you remember anything?" Dan asked.

"No" Phil laughed. "God I shouldn't have drank so much", he said hiding his face.

"Nothing at all?"

"No, I did something embarassing right?"

"No, I was just asking", Dan said. There was no way he was going to tell that they had shared a drunken kiss last night. 

Dan felt all the joy leaving his body.

Phil had kissed him last night for the first time but he was too drunk to even remember it.

Everything Phil had said last night about wanting to kiss Dan or that he had pretty lips all of it was just drunken talk that meant nothing. They were just empty words that had fell from Phil's lips. 

He would have probably said the same thing if it was someone else.

Dan wasn't special at all.

Phil kissed Dan only because he was drunk out of his senses to even realize what he was doing. How could have Dan been so stupid to think that Phil actually liked him. 

Phil kept talking but Dan didn't listen at all as he was too warped in his thoughts. He was mad, mostly at himself.

When Phil proposed that they should go and explore the neighbourhood a bit, Dan just declined blaming it on a headache as he spent the rest of the afternoon all alone in Phil's room.

He was more than relieved when they left for London the same evening. He just wanted to get back home and think about everything. He hugged Phil's parents for the last time and they left for the station.

On the train ride back home Dan slept not because he was actually sleepy but because he knew he couldn't handle talking to Phil.

When they reached London they got another cab and picked up Snowball from Taryn's house and of course she ran to Dan first. Dan just quietly gave her back to Phil and Phil looked at him in an odd way but didn't say anything. When they reached the apartement Dan quietly went to his falt.

"Dan wait"

"Yeah"

"Are you sure you are okay?" Phil asked. "You seem a little off"

"Yeah it's just my head hurts", Dan said.

"Oh rest well okay"

"Yeah it's fine. I am fine" Dan said.

"Thank you again for coming with me", Phil said as he hugged Dan. If it had been some other day Dan would have properly hugged back Phil but today it lasted less than five seconds. 

"It's nothing" Dan smiled.

Phil grinned.

"Good night Phil", Dan said.

"Night Daniel"

With that they went into their own houses. Dan threw his bag on the couch and changed his clothes as he lied down on the bed waiting for sleep to overcome him.

But of course the unmistakable sound of violin echoed through Dan's walls and he cursed Phil's stupid fucking violin and Phil himself for making him feel things that he never thought he would ever feel for someone.

A/N : I feel like the title of the chapter isn't very appropriate...