the last petal ≫ c.h. (discontinued)

t h i r t e e n

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I snuggled further into Luke, a smile on my face.

We were watching 21 Jump street and I kept muttering how hot Dave Franco is.

He groaned in annoyance, "Babeeeee stop it! We all know I'm far hotter!"

I giggled, "Of course."

Then I whispered "just kidding," and Luke playfully glared at me.

"Luke! I'm just joking around," I put my hand on his cheek and leaned in.

He was at first surprised, but then kissed me.

It got pretty heated, and before I could even move my hand to his belt buckle, he stopped me.

"Remember what I told you? We're waiting until we're married. I want to, trust me- I really want to. But I know what you're doing, you're trying to get rid of your virginity because you're afraid and you want the fear to go away. But this is something thats supposed to be special, so whether you want to or not, we're waiting. Until we're positive that we'll be together forever, because your first time should be with someone who you'll spend the rest of your life with."

I sighed and leaned back again.

Luke has always been such a sweet guy, but sometimes I wish he'd be less of a gentleman.

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"Carter, oh my god you're piss drunk. I shouldn't have let you have any, ugh you're not even 18, and the legal age is 21, I'm an awful friend oh my god what am I going to do-" I gained consciousness only so Calum would stop complaining worriedly.

"Oh hush, Cal. I'm merely buzzed, is all." I slurred.

I attempted to get up from my place on the wooden floor of his kitchen, but utterly failed.

"Here let me help," Calum clutched my arm gently.

He led me up the stairs while viciously muttering something along the lines of, "Damn partiers, if I find someone having sex on my bed, I'll be extremely pissed."

He barged into the first room on the right on the upper level, into a navy blue room.

"Thank god," he walked in and turned back around to face me.

"Sit on the bed and don't move, I'm going to get you some water. Also, don't fall asleep, you'll have to throw up the alcohol to get some out of your system." He informed, before turning and leaving, not without closing the door.

I sat on his bed and thought for a while.

The memory of Luke I'd thought of, why did I recall it then? Do I wish that we'd gone through with it?

Sure it would've been quite the experience but I think deep down, I know what he repetitively told me was true. Although, my drunk mind couldn't comprehend it in the slightest.

Who cares? Why not just throw away my V card. Lots of people do, a lot of people think of it as a chore to get done.

Just then, Calum walked in and handed me a cup of water.

"You look deep in thought. Whats on your mind?" He questioned.

I tried to word it so it wouldn't sound like a demand, but I couldn't think of any other way. Not to mention, I don't care if what I say scares him off, I just want to know.

"If... If I asked you to fuck me, would you?"

He nearly choked from sucking in a surprised breath so quickly.