Hold on JackABoy

Chapter 37- New Deal

Jack's POV

I've been staying with Jade for few months now. I called my landlord and told him to keep my power and water off for another week. I would be going back next Thursday and I'm taking Jade with me for a vacation! It'll be great. She's always wanted to see Ireland. Over the time I've stayed, we have become best friends and I've almost been totally clean. I messed up about 12 days ago. I had a really bad flashback...actually it was good... it was about Mark.. but I guess that's why it was bad. Jade and I have been going to a lot of places and doing a lot of things, other than when she's at work. I've honestly been having the time of my life. I would have never thought that Jade and I would become so close. I'm glad she found me that night. I was watering her plants for her and I couldn't help smiling at how much she means to me.

You don't mean the same to her
I frowned.

She just pities you.
No she doesn't.

She pities you just like Mark did.
"STOP!" I yelled. Lowering my head. "Please.."

I watched Jade run out from the bathroom, putting earrings in and applying lipstick.
"Where ya going doc?" I asked crossing my arm like a disapproving father.
"On that date with Tyler from the coffee shop!" She smiled. I'm glad and happy for her. I smiled and gave her a hug, which turned into me putting her in a head lock and giving her a noogie. "JACK JACK STOP MY HAIR JAAAACKK!" She screamed, laughing.
"Alright alright you win." She chuckled as I let go.
Giving her one last good luck hug. "Good luck, see you later," I said as we let go. I watched her walk out and and sighed, going to my bedroom to chill. I pulled up my laptop which I surprisingly barely used this entire few months. I started playing Happy Wheels, just because I haven't been uploading YouTube videos doesn't mean I want to stop gaming.
It actually made me pretty sad. I just kept thinking about how fun YouTube used to be for me. I realized deleting YouTube off my phone never actually deleted my account. I picked up my phone and opened my video editor.
I flipped the camera and hit record. I took a few deep breaths and started talking.

"Top o' the mornin' to ya laddies," I said in a softer slower tone like my earlier videos.
"I know I know... where have I been? Its been months right? I just disappeared after PAX.." I took a second to gather my thoughts. "I wanted to make this to get real serious with you for a moment which is something I rarely do." I paused. "After PAX something really bad happened. I....I almost died. I'm not going to go to into detail but it was pretty bad. I had hit rock bottom. I fled town. I skipped out on my friends especially when one needed me most..." I looked down and felt my tears build up. "I've been staying with a friend lately and have been working on getting better..so I won't be uploading on here as much anymore. Maybe....maybe once I get better I'll come back. But for now I'm going inactive..." 
"Thank you all so much for the support... I couldn't have done this without you... I love you," I said looking directly into the audience. I felt a tear drop and I smiled and hit end. I hit a few buttons and it brought me over to YouTube. I added a description and the title "Thank You" and hit upload.

As soon as it went up which roughly took around 30 minutes the comments started rolling in.

"Its ok Jack we understand we love you too"

"Is it mark? The friend who needed you?? Where is he?? Is he ok? Love you tho.."

"Do you know what happened to markiplier??"

"Nooo you cant do this to me i love your videos!!"

"Good the internet could do with the loss of this cancer"

"Is mark ok.."

"Jack i understand what its like but please keep uploading"

"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO 💔"

"Good you were annoying anyway"

"I still support him"

"Wait a friend what if thats mark guys i hope hes ok"

I liked and commented on the few that were nice and got carried away. The time got pulled away from me.

I heard the door slam. It pulled me out of my thoughts and I thought I was gonna wee myself. I looked out my window and it was dark.
9pm. "Fuck," I whispered. I watched Jade run by my room with her hands over her face and her heels in her chain purse. I slowly pushed myself off the bed.
"Jade?" I whispered, walking toward my door and leaning on the door frame. "Jade are you ok?"
I heard sobbing from beyond the bathroom door. I knocked. "Can i come in?" I heard the sobs stop and a muffled no. I tried the doorknob and I ran to the kitchen to grab a knife. I worked it into the lock and turned it. "Jade... I'm coming in." I heard her shuffle and I walked in. I saw her in her dress sitting against the tub and the wall with her knees semi to her chest and one arm stretched out and one arm at her side. Her head was drooped and her shoulders were shaking.  She tried to choke out an "I'm sorry" but she was trying to hard not to sob. I noticed what she had done and it broke my heart. There was a shallow cut on her extended arm, almost as she didn't want to put it there, and in her other hand was a blade. I sighed and walked over to her. I slid down the wall and sat next to her. I rubbed her arm and got her to calm down a bit. I trailed my hand down to hers and grabbed the blade. I outstretched my arm and pulled my sleeve up. I wiped off the dirty blade on my shirt and then made a shallow cut on my arm letting out a tiny gasp.
"NO JACK WHAT ARE YOU-STOP." She tried to grab it but I had already finished and pulled away.
"New deal," I said.
"You do it? I do it," I proposed.
"But you were doing so well..." she looked down ashamed.
"I wont let you fall down this hole again."  She smiled and wiped her tears with her arms. "S-same then," She said..

I extended my hand. "Deal?" She shook my hand and cleaned her face. Then she put her head in my shoulder and took some air in and sighed. "Do you wanna talk about what happened?" I felt her head nod. "He found out I used to be a guy and told me I was an abomination and that I should be in a mental asylum and I'm wrong. And just a bunch of other mean things," She began to sob again. I felt my heart sink and began to hold her. "He's wrong. You're beautiful," I said to reassure her and we sat there for a few minutes, until I noticed we should get some sleep. I pushed myself up and turned around. I held out my hand. "C'mon my lady, it's time you get some well needed sleep." She giggled and wiped her eyes once again and grabbed my hand. I pulled her up and walked towards the toilet, tossing the blade in and flushed it. We washed our arms and I led her to her room. I turned as she got into a tank-top and sweatpants. I helped her in bed. "Good night," I said as I headed for the door. "Wait..Jack."
I turned. "Yes?" She looked down and played with the hem of the blanket. "Will-will you lay with me?"  I smiled and nodded. I turned off the light and walked toward the bed. I got under the covers and she turned off the lamp. She put her head on my chest. "Thank you," she mumbled as she began her cycle to drift off to sleep. I rubbed her back and soon dozed off myself.

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Sorry it took so long i haven't been the best lately but im really proud of this chapter :)-x