ill // phan au

p r o l o g u e

[trigger warning]

I sat, pondering whether it would be worth it. to throw my life away with a simple slice on my wrists.

they made it so easy, too easy to end it and in a way, I was grateful. all I had to do was press the cold metal against my skin... spilt my skin open...

I watched my blood roll down my arms and into my empty bath where I sat, fully clothed.

I could feel myself getting weaker and as it came to an end, suddenly the world became alive. he was starting to get more distant and I could hear more clearly like the clatter of the knife hitting the tiled floor, the sound of my parents fighting, soft footsteps and a knock.

a knock? the knock continued and it turned into pounding but my eyes were closing and I didn't care. I was free.

I was finally free.

*****

sudden inspiration at 1am, that's how my brain works.

hey, welcome to ill.

trigger warning- mentions of suicide, self-harm, anorexia, drug/alcohol abuse, ect. please please read with caution. I don't usually sugar coat these things so just please, if you're triggered by these and you're uncomfortable, save yourself.

if you've decided to come along on this journey, thank you.

I feel like this might be good. idk, I'm excited to start this. the next part should be up soon since this one is so short but thank you for reading !

I hope you all enjoy this!!

byyeee