Things Get Better (I promise)

Chapter ELEVEN

Tyler sat down in his car and drove. He didn't know where he was going or what he was going to do there. Tyler drove away from the college. He knew he aventually had to go back, but it felt good to leave even if it was just for some few hours. Tyler opened a redbull and took a big gulp, he didn't want to get sleepy any time soon.

Tyler drove a little longer and saw a little road lead into the forest so he turned left. He drove out on the little road in the middle of the forest. And after some time he stopped on the side of the road and took a sipp of the half empty container of redbull. Tyler was hungry, but it was like his mind didn't want him to eat. Bacause of his sins. Tyler was a Christian, but he liked girsl and boys. He didn't want to dissapoint God, but his sexuality wasn't something he could just change. Tyler walked out of the car and found a good spot to relax. Tyler laid down and looked up at the sky. The light blue, cloud free sky and the contrast of his silver car and the green trees made him inspired. He opened his notebook and wrote. He wrote pages upon pages. He didn't really know what he was going to do with them but he had to write.

Tyler looked up at the sky. The beautiful dark blue night sky. The white freckles in it made him smile. He felt peacefull. Something he hadn't been in some time now. He just wanted to relax. He didn't want all this drama. All this things happening to him.

He heard a weird noice. Tyler looked around, he saw light flashing from his car. He walked slowly over to the car. He looked through the window. And he saw his phone. It was buzzing. Tyler opened the door, picked up the phone and answred the call. "Hello?" Tyler said confused. "Hey." A crying girl said. "Maddy?" Why were she crying? Did something happen to her? Who did this to her? "Maddy, why are you crying?" Tyler said. He was really concerned. "I just, I miss you so,so much Tyler." She cried even more. Tyler felt so bad, He was one of Maddy's best friends and he left her, all alone. "Maddy." Tyler said and played with a piece of grass."Yeah?" She said. "I can come over this weekend if you want." He said and smiled. "Are you serious?" Maddy sounded exited. "Yeah." He said and laughed. "You and Josh?" She said. "No, just me. Josh don't want to be with me anymore." He said a little quiet "why?" Maddie said, she sounded a little angry. "After he and Debby was out on a date I found him on a bench outside and he smelled like beer and cigarettes. So I were going to ask him what he did last night but all he said was that he didn't want to talk to me. And it was like he was angery with me for some reason." Tyler wiped a tear. "Tyler, maybe he was just drunk. I'm sure he still cares about you and want to be with you but maybe he need some time." She said with a calmb voice. "Yeah, maybe." Tyler said he said down on the grass again. "Maddie?" Tyler said a little more calmb. "Yeah?" She said calmb back. "I love you, and I am very, very thankfull for having you." He said and closed his eyes. The cold breeze blowing by felt good on Tylers warm body. "I love you too Tyler, and I'm thankfull for you too." She said. There was a knocking sound on Maddy's door. "But I have to go now Tyler." She said in a hurry. "Okay, love you." Tyler said, she hung up.

Tyler scrolled through his contacts and saw Josh's name. Tyler missed Josh. He really, really missed Josh. He wanted to call him, but Josh didn't want to talk to him. Maybe he thought that Tyler was disgusting because he liked boys. Maybe Josh didn't like Tyler at all, maybe Josh only was with him because he wanted to make fun of him later.

Tyler didn't want to think anymore, he walked back to his car and started it. Then he drove. He didn't want to stop anywhere, not tonight. They had a week off from school, so he had time to get there. He turned on the radio and a song he knew came on, that didn't happen too often.

Are you insane like me?
Been in pain like me?
Bought a hundred dollar bottle of champagne like me?
Just to pour that motherf*cker down the drain like me?

Tyler liked this song, it made him confident in a way. He didn't know how or why but it just did. He sang along and took a sip of his redbull. He was actually having fun. It wasn't as bad. Well, now he had music so for now it wasn't bad.

Tyler continued driving. The song changed. The people on the radio started talking. "From halsey to bring me the horizon, here is deathbeds." Tyler allso knew that song. But he usually got really emotional. He drove to soft music. He was starting to get tierd so he opened another box of redbull and threw the old one in the pile of empty ones that he had allready used as fuel for the trip. 

The roads were calmb and the only thing moving was the trees he drove by. But he liked it. He drove out on a little bigger road. But it was still small enough for "watch out for deers" signs. There was a line of cars driving towards him and he started to feel tired he yawned. When he opened his eyes again he saw a deer jump in front of his car and he lost controll. The deer maniged to get away, but Tyler crashed in a passing car. The only thing he could feel was tears running down his cold face as he faded into deep darkness.