Things Get Better (I promise)

Chapter THIRTY SEVEN

Josh woke up and looked at Tyler. He was curled up in a ball next to Josh's legs. "Tyler?" Josh whispered. "Tyler?" He whispered a little louder. "Mmmmmm." Was the only thing Tyler said. Josh moved his legs and walked up stairs. Josh took a shower andwas about to put on some clothes when he saw one of Tyler's books. He knew he wasn't alloud to look in them but he had allways wondered why. He didn't even know what was in the book. Josh picked it up und looked at it. The book was matte black on the outside. He opened it and looked at the page.

Tuesday

I really miss him...
But I don't know if he even thinks of me.
And I think I like him.
Like... really like him.
But he doesn't seem like the gay type...

Blurry have been more active than usual these last weeks. Saying stuff...

I don't know if I can take it much longer.

-Tyler R. Joseph.

Josh laid down the book where it was before he touched it and walked down stairs. Tyler and Jenna sat in the sofa. "Hello Jenna." Josh said and smiled. "Hey Josh." She said and hugged him. "Hey baby." Josh said and kissed him. Josh didn't just kiss him. He tried to send Tyler happyness. He wanted Tyler to be happy. He really did. "Woah, you okay?" Tyler asked and laughed a little. "Yeah, are you?" Josh asked and looked seriously at him. "Yeah." Tyler said. "Sure?" Josh said. "Yeah." Tyler said and looked confused at him. Josh sat down next to him. "I love you." Josh whispered and leaned his head against Tyler. "I love you too?" Tyler said.

Josh took a walk with Buttercup.

Tyler's POV.

"What was with Josh? He seamed so strange." Jenna said and looked at Tyler. "I don't know actually." Tyler said and laughed.

Josh's POV.

What if Tyler thinks that I don't like him.
Is he still depressed?
He was when I met him.
What if he thinks that I'm cheating.
I'm not though.
Does he know that I love him?
What if he doesn't...

Josh walked back.

Normal POV.

Josh opened the door and Buttercup jumped on top of Tyler. "Hey, hey, Buttercup, calm down!" Tyler yelled and laughed. Josh laughed and called her to the kitchen. "Here you go." He said and filled up her food bowl with food.

Josh walked upstairs and looked at the book. He picked it up and walked to the bathroom. Josh locked tha door and sat down on the floor.

Saturday

I'm going back today.
I wonder if he's going to hate me.
I wonder if he's going to look at me.
Maybe he thinks that I'm a slut because of Pete.
What if pete have shown up.
What if pete have told Josh about me.
Well... It's ten past four so I'm going to sleep.

-Tyler R. Joseph.

Josh continued to read when he came across a strange page.

This is a story about a scarlet letter...

It just hit me as I lay my head down
No one around in the dark cold night, I hear a sound
In my head repeat track of everything you've ever said
Must be something, but it's nothing, so I just go back to bed

It's 4, crack the door to the hallway in my dreams
But it seems my hallway keeps closing in on me
Forcing me out, making me think about you and how you're gone
I see 4: 05 with teary eyes and then I write this song

And I just can't believe it has to be this way
You know we say it seems to me that it was just the other day
I saw your face, I saw your light, you ran the race, you fought the fight
But now it's all being torn down for me tonight

And I know it might be a little selfish for me to say
But I need to know if you've thought of me at all today
Cause every day walk past the place you lived five days of the week
And now it's 10 after 4 and I am taken by sleep

Spending hours on end, deciding what I'd say to a friend if I ever saw 'em again
Cause I don't know if I know, don't want to come across the wrong way
And I don't know if I know, but I know I want to see your face today

And somebody told me they saw you cry and break down
Do you know how hard that is to get around and think about?
It's not like you to let emotions get the best of things
Especially when everything is hanging in the air we breathe

And I just can't believe it has to be this way
You know we say it seems to me that it was just the other day
I saw your face, I saw your light, you ran the race, you fought the fight
But now it's all being torn down for me tonight

And I know it might be a little selfish for me to say
But I need to know if you've thought of me at all today
Cause every day walk past the place you lived five days of the week
And now it's 10 after 4 and I am taken by sleep

Josh looked at it. What did it mean? Had he lost a friend? Did someone die? He hadn't said anything to Josh about it...

*knock knock knock*

"Are you okay Josh?" Tyler asked. "Y-yeah.. I just.. uhm." Josh said and dried to hurry. "What's up? Josh?" Tyler said, he sounded worried. "Nothing, nothing.. I uhm.." Josh said and threw the book in one of the cabinets. Josh opened the door and walked down stairs. "Where's Jenna?" Josh asked. "She left some hours ago." Tyler said. Josh walked to the kitchen and made some reese's puffs. "Josh can you come here for a second?" Tyler said. "Of course." Josh said and put a spoon full of the cerial in his mouth. He ate and walked to the sofa where Tyler sat. "What's been going on with you?" Tyler said and looked at him. "Nothing, what's been going on with you?" Josh said looking at him. He didn't dare to look him in the eyes. "Josh, look at me." Josh looked up at him. The guilt filled his stumack as he felt like he was going to throw up. "I read your book."