Broken (Nathan Sykes fanfic)

Chapter 50

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I looked around the white hospital room one last time and shook my head. I needed to go, I couldn't stay here no matter how much I was dreading to see the others. My heart fell at the thought of Nathan causing my eyes to sting, I squeezed my eyes shut in hopes of them clearing.

"Alexis are you ready?" my mom asked in a sharp tone.

I opened my eyes and nodded my head while lifting up my bag, "hurry along," she pursed. My stomach began aching as I turned around and began walking toward the door.

She stood there with a frown creased on her forehead, "we need to get you home. Then we will talk about when we will move back to California," she said. I didn't even argue with her knowing that nothing good would come of it. She was persistent on leaving England and to head back to California, no matter how much I couldn't bare to see Nathan at the moment that doesn't mean that I want to move back but I couldn't help the feeling of disgust at the thought of his name.

We walked out the room, a doctor stopped my mom and talked to her for a little while taking glanced at me every few seconds. I clenched my hand around the strap of the bag I held in my hands and winced at the slight stinging pain from my stomach. I tuned everything out and kept my thoughts away from what was really happening, I couldn't let it get to me. I should do what my mom always told me to do, not care.

"Alexis," my mother said causing me to look towards her, "lets go."

I followed her out the dreaded hospital and into the cold winter air, a light frost filled the parking lot instead of snow which had cleared away. We walked towards the car with neither of us saying anything. What was there to say?

When we reached the car I got into the passenger seat and placed the bag on my lap before my breathing began to come out quicker. I can't be in a car. I closed my eyes and tried calming myself before opening my eyes and I clicked in the seat belt however I moved it so there wasn't any pressure on my stitches on my stomach. My mom soon got in and pulled out the car park and began the drive towards the house. I kept quiet while breathing deeply, my hands fiddled together as all the memories came flooding back. I leaned my head against the window and watched the passing houses trying to block them out while my mom rambled on about how it was going to be good to leave this place. I didn't have it in me to defend anyone, but how can I defend the people I trusted and they knew all along what was happening? I couldn't.

My eyes drifted closed but my thoughts were soon filled with Nathan and all the things we did together also the crash. I snapped my eyes open and took a deep breath. I looked out the window and saw my mom park the car before I undid the seatbelt and got out the car while holding the bag in my hand again. I followed her towards the door and she unlocked it before stepping in, I quickly followed and looked around the hallway. It felt like ages since I was last here.

"Lexi!" Jo shouted coming out the living room.

"Where is your father?" mom asked him after hanging up her coat.

Jo grinned at me before answering, "upstairs sleeping. Lexi look!" Jo said and pointed to his blue computed cast on his arm.

I stood there frozen knowing that it was my fault he had broken his arm. He shouldn't of been in the crash. I felt everything fall around me before I put the walls back up, I couldn't break down. I needed to carry on.

"Cool," I said calmly trying not to let the panic slip through my voice.

Jo frowned slightly before grinning, "can you play Xbox with me?"

I glanced towards my mom who was walking up the stairs before looking at Jo, "oh yeah sure. I just need to put my things away," I said giving him a small smile that felt forced.

Jo nodded his head, "I'll go set it up." He said happily and ran up the stairs.

I walked towards the stairs and took a step waiting for the pain in my stomach but it was only slightly so I carried on up the stairs until I reached the top. I headed in the direction of my bedroom until I reached the door. I gripped the door handle and twisted the door knob before stepping in and seeing my bedroom look exactly the same as when I was last here. With Nathan. My whole body tensed up at his name while my eyes filled with tears that I quickly blinked away.

I walked over to my cupboard and began unpacking my bag and took my phone out my jacket pocket before sitting down on my bed slowly. I checked through my messages ignoring the ones from Brooke and Jay seeing a few from the other guys but none from Nathan. I went onto my contacts and scrolled through them until I got to his number, I stared at it with a glazed over look before my body began to shake and tears flowed down my cheeks. Choked sobs escaped my mouth as I dropped my phone to the floor. I hated him so much. How could he do this to me? I hate him.

I gripped a pillow before holding it over my face and let out a frustrated scream into it letting out all my anger and pain. When I stopped I just felt my whole body go numb, even without him he made me feel things that I didn't want to feel. I trusted him. I cared about him. Then he threw it back in my face because of Austin and a stupid date almost. He chose Vicky over me, he never liked me. It was all an act. Austin wanted to get back at me, he wanted Nathan to ruin me and he succeeded.

"Lexi?" a voice asked quietly.

I took the pillow away and harshly wiped away at my cheeks, "yeah?" my voice came out hoarse as I looked at my younger brother.

"What's wrong?" he asked softly and walked into my bedroom quietly.

"Nothing Jo," I answered and sniffed slightly.

Jo's forehead creased, "then why are you crying? Was it Nathan? I'll hit him," Jo warned.

I let out a forced laugh, "it's fine Jo. So what game we playing?" I asked, changing the subject.

Jo looked at me before replying, "halo."

My face scrunched up, "I hate that game," I whined and stood up before wincing at my stomach.

Jo grinned, "tough. Come on you need to design your character," Jo said he started walking out but stopped and looked at me, "I'll punch Nathan for making you cry." He said with a glint in his eyes before walking away.

I shook my head at my brother before sighing, I can't be sad about it there's nothing I can change. So what's the point?

After I picked up my phone from the floor I walked into Jo's bedroom and saw him sat on his bed, I went over and sag next to him while sitting down slowly. He handed me a controller, "right choose the colour of the armor you want," Jo instructed while I watched him choose dark green with black.

I went through the colours and chose light blue with white, "you can change what kind of helmet you want as well also what type of armor you want," Jo said and did it on his character.

I watched him before doing the same with mine and once I was done he started the game, "right we need to kill the aliens, you can go in the helicopters." Jo mumbled and frowned in thought as he looked at the screen.

I saw an alien coming towards my character and shot at if before I saw Jo's character and saw him finish off the alien.